What has Fighter learned today?

Continuing off my blog post last week on Friso Gold about introducing your child to new things, I’ve been trying to ask myself, what has Fighter learned today?

Ok today!  Got something new! Today I took him to the supermarket.  Usually if I go buy groceries I leave him at home with nanny cos it’s just much easier for me to run out myself, grab the groceries and rush home.  But I thought, aiya poor Fighter has been home all day and what’s a little extra time and baggage (carrying him lol) for him to go out and see things?

So okay! Packed up the nanny and him and off we went to the mall.

He loved it!!! I felt a bit bad for not doing this earlier. :(

I put him in the trolley and immediately he started turning his head left and right, wide-eyed.  He absorbed everything!

He gripped the trolley handles and scrutinized the metal bars.

He kept swiveling around to look at the colorful packages on the shelves as we rolled past.

I pointed out signs and labels to him and he looked intently at them.  Then drooled a bit. Lolol.

I gave him two packets of cheese with different packaging and he stared at them with super interest hahaha.  And then he tried to chew on one of them. >_>

But the point is!  I brought him somewhere new and he was so enthralled! I really wish I did it earlier but at the same time I’m glad I did it now.  All the mundane boring things that we adults take for granted, kids absorb in wonder and it was actually very fun for me to look at the supermarket through a toddler’s eyes.  All those shiny bottles and bright lights!  The sudden cold coming from the meat freezers!

Unfortunately I forgot to take any photos this time cos my hands were busy pushing the shopping cart.  Also very scared to take my hands off it in case somebody snatches him away. >.> (normally when we take him out he’s in the stroller and strapped in securely)

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But I do have this video!  Playing tickle monster with Fighter hehehe.

When I did this to Fighter for the first time he shrieked with laughter, probably out of reflex and also astonishment. He started laughing like crazy for a brief moment at the new yet foreign sensation. After that, he tried so hard to flip over so his stomach is out of reach hahahahaha.

So what has your child experienced today? :)

You can also visit Friso Gold’s FB page for more info and check out what other moms are up to!

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8 differences between the first and second pregnancy

Wow who knew I’d have enough pregnancies to write this blog post!

So I’ve had four months plus experience of being pregnant the second round so I feel pretty qualified writing about this.  Here’s what I noticed has been different this second pregnancy.

Baby bump showing

First pregnancy: I think it took me a good five months before I started to show really obviously.

Second pregnancy:


Tadah!  16 weeks yo.

Until some people on Instagram started asking if it was twins WTF.

The risk of Down Syndrome

First pregnancy: A Down Syndrome test in utero although highly accurate is not 100% definitive (like most things).  But the test can tell you your chances of having a DS baby.  The lower the chances the less likely it is to happen.  For my last pregnancy, my chances was something like 1 in 8000+ which was very unlikely.

Second pregnancy: Just two years later at 29, my odds had dropped to 1 to 1000 or 2000 I forgot.  Still very unlikely but it was pretty shocking. Why so fast one my body become inhospitable! In a way it’s good that I’m getting the babies out of the way earlier before the risks pile up… *comforts self

Nobody cares… sad but true!

First pregnancy: The slightest hunger pang, the teeniest wave of nausea and family members will fawn over you.  Trust me.  Everything will be handed to you… on a silver platter.  You will be treated like a precious jewel (or the casing of a precious jewel HAHAHA). Kidding!  It will be a wonderful time.

Second pregnancy: You can be vomiting with your head in the toilet for maybe half an hour then only your husband will remember to call from the next room (far away from the puke), “Eh are you okay?”  You will then have to quickly finish puking, wipe your mouth and run over to a wailing toddler to see what he wants.  If toddler bounces on your stomach, HOLD YOUR PUKE IN.  Or else you’re gonna be wiping vomit off and changing your kid for the bazillionth time that day.

And if porridge makes you nauseous, you just gotta suck it up (ok not literally, by suck it up I mean hold your breath for half hour or however long it takes) cos that’s what you need to sit there and feed your first baby with.

Carrying heavy weights

First pregnancy: Life is a breeze!  It’s literally weightless.  People open doors for you and give you their seat lest you exert your uterus.  If you’re buying groceries, people run out and help you carry shopping bags!

Second pregnancy: Oh bag of rice?  That’s lighter than your 7 kg baby right? OK see you later!

Feeling tired

First pregnancy: It’s totally normal to feel tired or drained when you’re pregnant – your body is making a new human being after all!  Take as much rest as you can and don’t sweat the small stuff.

Second pregnancy: Rest? Okay I’ll try to get some in the car in between trying to entertain my first child and fishing out different snacks to keep his mouth busy enough so he’ll stop screaming/trying to get out of his car seat.

Dressing the Bump

First pregnancy: In anticipation for the growing belly, go out and buy tons of stretchy leggings, baggy tops and empire waist dresses.  Fret because nothing is flattering and resign yourself to a year of looking frumpy.

Second pregnancy: Good news! After nine months of looking frumpy, you don’t care anymore how you look. HAHAHA.

While I’d always loved dressing up, my outfits were never super elaborate to begin with and now they’re even simpler.  I dress down all the way to Chinatown yo wtf.  I used to take really good care of my hair, curling and styling it.  Now it’s lucky it gets to see a comb wtf.  Luckily it’s always bobbed and I don’t have much hair anyway so not much daily maintenance required.



It’s only recently (i.e. last week) that I felt comfortable enough with my schedule and juggling Fighter to decide to grow my hair out and start styling it properly again.

But the real good news is (and this is my personal experience only of course) is that while the first pregnancy I struggled with trying to dress in my usual style, this time I’m more confident in what flatters the Bump and me.  It’s like pregnancy #1 was a trial run so pregnancy #2 runs a lot smoother in terms of fashion.  Plus I’ve got a bunch of leftover maternity wear from before so I don’t need to shop for more.

Being chill

First pregnancy: We were paranoid about everything.  Every new food item on my plate we’d be Googling to see if this was safe for pregnancy.  Can go for manicures?  Dye jobs? Can paint the house while pregnant? Doctor appointments were forever seared in my brain and up to a week before I’d be hopping up and down in excitement over getting to see our baby again.  I even rushed to the hospital once to have an emergency ultrasound because I “didn’t feel pregnant” anymore.

Second pregnancy: I forgot my last doctor’s appointment. -_-  Got a call from the doctor’s office asking if I was coming in and drove like a madwoman to the hospital.  Then the doctor was surprised because this was the second time in a row Fatty didn’t come with me, whereas he came every single appointment the last time. :X :X

The anticipation

First pregnancy: We couldn’t wait to find out the baby’s gender so we could start shopping.  So much excitement over furnishing the nursery and getting the cot and stroller and other baby essentials.  The pregnancy was a countdown to meeting our new baby and falling in love!

Second pregnancy: I still can’t wait to find out the baby’s gender, although more out of curiosity’s sake because Bump is gonna be using most of Fighter’s things.  Unless she’s a girl hehehe then in that case let the shopping begin wtf.  Nevertheless, this pregnancy is still a countdown to meeting Bump and falling in love. :)



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Baby Bloomer: 23 Oct 2014

Actual age: 14 months 11 days
Adjusted age: 12 months 11 days

Ok time to update Fighter’s growth again!

First time wearing a dress (and probably last)



Not too happy about it if you can see hahahaha.

A friend had an animal themed birthday party for her son and I remembered Fighter received this Kumamon onesie from Cheesie for his birthday.  It came with a black hat with bear ears on it and I thought it’d be totally appropriate!

Then when I put it on him… hmmm why the bottom although shorts look so poofy one.  And the sleeves a bit frilly hor…

But I asked Cheesie and she said it’s unisex! So okay la let him wear this once.  I figure if there’s any time in his life he can wear something approximating a dress without getting too much flack, it’s now.


Super cute in it though!!! And he suddenly looks exactly like me as a baby. O.O

My mom asked me if I dressed him like this on purpose I think she was wondering if I did that hoping the girliness would rub off on the next baby. :X

Getting pretty good at emulating what we do




He saw me lifting the beads on the curvy wire and dropping them and immediately followed to see if the same thing would happen. Hehehe.

Also learned recently to do the blinking stars gesture with his hands when I sing Twinkle Twinkle Little Star.  Funny thing is he’s always surprised by this ability and stares at his hands as though they’re not connected to his body hahahaha.

Learned cause and effect

Learned how to switch on and off lights and is always insisting we carry him over to light switches so he can turn the lights on and off over and over again. -_-

Also learning the consequence of falling over and hitting his head hahahaha.  Unfortunately not much help cos he’s still as clumsy as ever and continues falling over.  But the good thing is he doesn’t cry as much anymore when he does!

Getting better at standing



He’s been standing holding on to furniture for some time but now getting better at it!  Very action-ly stands with one hand clutching a toy/remote, the other holding table/shelf/whatever.

I think he’s also beginning to be able to stand without any assistance just that he’s too scared to do it wtf.  Yesterday he was standing holding on to the playpen side and I was standing behind him.  He turned to look for me and let go of the playpen!  Stood like that for a few seconds before he realized and hurriedly held back the playpen hahahaha.

Celebrated his first Deepavali



Hahahahaha happy belated Deepavali! His PlayNest had a mini party for the occasion and asked the kids to dress in Indian outfits.  One of the moms brought a whole pack of bindis so we got one too hehehe.



Eating monster only concerned about food. >.>  He must be in heaven cos all the parents brought different snacks so he had loads to pick from.



Some romance going on hahahahah.  Coincidentally he and his uhh girlfriend wtf wore the same color.  She’s so damn cute in her outfit I cannot!!! Got necklace, bangles and the little hair accessories.  She even had a jewel sticker on her nose hahahaha.

Learned to be a disruption wtf



Fighter’s great weakness is electronics. I know most babies love remotes all la but Fighter especially loves this sort of thing (including light switches and doorbells wtf) so imagine his great delight with the keyboard in school.

All the kids are fascinated by it but Fighter is the only baby when teacher is playing, goes over and presses some button so the piano sounds change into synthesizer or drums WTF.  *covers face with hands

Music portion is usually spent dragging him away and apologizing to everyone wtf.

Started baby self feeding

During the Deepavali party, I saw Fighter’s friend Kimberly (who’s only two months older) scooping and eating yogurt without dropping any!  I was so impressed I thought it could be time for him to learn how to self feed.  Imagine the free time I’d have! *stretches toes

Did some googling on how to start so here’s what I did.

1. Bought suction bowls (so he won’t tip them over) and easy grip baby silverware.  The suction bowls are from Munchkin. :)

2. Started by giving him a spoon to hold and play with while I still fed him with another spoon

3. After a few days, I put a bit of food into a small bowl for him with the rest in a separate bowl I held.  If he spills any food, at least I can make sure he still gets most of his nutrition from my bowl.

4. Held the spoon but also made him hold or at least touch the handle of the spoon while I manuevered it into his mouth.  This one he was pretty willing to do!

When he gets better at holding the spoon himself can let him gooooooooooooo



So far so good….




For the first few spoons he’s fine ‘feeding’ himself.  After that it’s more fun to dip his hands into his bowl and spread the food on the table. T______________T



I’m not even OCD and I get super tense watching the food get smeared around.  And I already have a helper to help clean up!

Never mind only for a few months…. right?

Oh and here’s a Fatty update…

Fatty is one of the top nominees for EY Entrepreneur of the Year 2014!

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Congratulations Fats!  I had no doubt he would be nominated and didn’t get why he was so pessimistic about it… until I realized past winners were people like Tony Fernandez wtf and it’s apparently a big deal! Then I was all like oh yeaa…. cannot even be nominated… *chugs water

But he did! So proud of him. :D

Oh ya and a Bump update…

Detected a gender today at my 16 week appointment!  But it’s not the same sex as what we saw last month wtf so still not sure which it is.  Argh cannot wait for next month to know for sure!!!!!


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Wah so long haven’t updated properly!

Ok the reason is because… I made a last ditch attempt at freedom and went to Nagoya for a short trip!

Last ditch because after this bogged down with two kids under 2 I dunno if I will ever get out of lockdown. O_O

So when Bobo asked if I wanted to be her plus one on her work trip to Nagoya I was obviously like TAKE ALL MY MONEY. Lol.

Didn’t really take that many photos cos I took it as a non-work super relaxing trip.  But posting them anyway!


One of our first stops was… the drugstore. Lol.  I think we spent at least 70% of our free unscheduled time in different drugstores and pharmacies.

Surprisingly I didn’t shop too much! Still shopped la wtf but quite choosy with my purchases this time.  Last time my shopping behavior was more like take basket and sweep shelf contents into my basket hahaha.  Maybe this is what growing old is like.


Went to the Ohsu Kannon temple!


Taken with my Sony Xperia Z2

Majestic huh?


Here’s me and Bobo.  I look quite stressed here cos when I asked someone who looked like he was working there (as part of the stalls and festivities around the temple) he said sure! 100 yen only WTF.

He was joking la but I didn’t know! Not used to Japanese strangers joking wtf.  So when he was taking this picture I was thinking aiya how to tell him I actually don’t want him to take wtf.


My #audfit!  A bit obsessed with loose but structured tops now cos they fit Bump well but still look streamlined and stylish.


Carnival outside Ohsu Kannon!  Actually I really wanted to play this but how to bring the goldfish back to Malaysia…. In my mouth ah wtf.

Stopped by Komehyo in Ohsu to check out their designer floor!  They carry both secondhand and unused designer goods so basically Bobo and I had a ball tapping in all the prices and converting to RM and oohing and aahing over how cheap everything was hahaha.

The secondhand goods are all graded by quality but even a B grade (the third grade) item is in fantastic shape!


Like this backpack. *tears glistening in eyes wtf

Very very cute leh!!! I’ve never seen this design before!  It’s actually very small, so much so that I had to test putting my wallet in to see if it would fit. (It did.) But doesn’t look small cos I’m carrying it la wtf looks just nice right?

It was only Rm2000!  But I didn’t get it cos… we need the money for Bump! Haha. No la I don’t like buying expensive things on impulse will feel mad guilty one. T_T


This Hermes damn cute hor!

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That’s Nagoya TV Tower behind!  We’re on top of Oasis 21 which features a very cool water feature on the roof.

That’s also not a camel toe hor HAHAHA.  It’s just Bump trying to say hi through my pants. :X

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It’s supposed to be a modern symbol of Nagoya!  According to the client la haha.


Here here Bump.  Your five seconds of fame.


Sorry ah a lot of selfies.

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It was a Sunday so the main street in Sakae (the most happening part of Nagoya) was closed for pedestrians!  So we also walk la hahaha.


Nagoya is famous for chicken wings!  We went to Yama Chan which is a chain of chicken wing restaurants.  It’s actually more like an izakaya cos people go there to drink and eat an assortment of foods, chicken wings being one of them.


I don’t normally drink beer  but Bump wants some beer!  Look at those two drunkards beside me. >.> Lolol.


Oh ya one night Bobo and I decided to hit Don Quijote for cheap cosmetics and lashes (and random rubbish).  Got a few branches but dunno how Bobo managed to Google for the furthest one wtf.

We should have suspected cos our train ticket there cost us 500+ yen each already which is very expensive for normal within-city standards!  But no we only realized when our train took forever to arrive wtf.

So when we got there we were like OK must shop more to make our train ticket’s worth.  We did buy some stuff but not super substantial la.  But halfway through I heard them make an announcement that foreigners who show passport can get 8% tax back!

Being true blue aunties, we were like ok must do it.  So I went to the cashier and pulled out my passport.  The staff seemed a bit flustered (maybe cos nobody actually did that before wtf) but they very politely and willingly obliged.

We ended up standing there for an entire half hour while the staff filled out the necessary paperwork. made out the returns and wrapped our purchases in tearproof paper. T_T

The staff warned us that because it’s duty free we cannot open the package until we leave Japan wtf.  So basically the makeup I bought cannot be used any time soon.

And the tax refund? It was a grand total of…. 400 yen.

HAHAHAAHAH. All that trouble for RM12 T_T I’d willingly give it back to Don Quijote la hahaah. But never mind la consider cover our ticket back to our hotel.


Hungry ghost and a very pretty married woman. Thank god for the conbinis man, can just pop in any time and buy snacks for whenever I’m hungry.


The view at Oasis 21.


One of Nagoya’s specialty dishes – miso tonkatsu!  Nagoya  has quite a few of these foods unique to it which is pretty cool.  Not sure if other cities have their own foods (besides Osaka and its okonomiyaki which I don’t like :X) cos I don’t pay a lot of attention to food hehe.CIMG3286

Miso tonkatsu was nais though!


We might have overdosed on purikura…


Ya the big eyes thing too much hahaha but it was set on auto mode.


Haven’t done it in years! The technology so advanced now that they even elongate your legs and slim your hips. :O


And can change lip color too!


See Bobo’s legs freakishly long lol.


I dunno if I’ve just never noticed or that Nagoya is the most baby friendly city in Japan??? In every toilet stall there’s a special baby seat in it so moms can put their babies in it safely while they pee.

Some stalls even come with a tiny urinal (like above) or a small toilet bowl especially for kids.

And I saw parents babywearing everywhere!  So baby friendly one ah motivated to bring Fighter next time. :3

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Uh we got a bit tied up spending our coins buying Fuchiko from the toy machines at the airport.


Sushi candles! Also at the airport.  quite a few interesting shops and restaurants at the Nagoya airport actually.

Oh ya at the airport was when the typhoon hit too. T_______T

Our flight got canceled and…we were stuck at the airport overnight.  We had to exit the boarding area and pick up our baggage…


Very impressed that the ground staff so efficiently unloaded the plane and color coordinated the baggage so the passengers could locate bags easier!


Then we had to start pumping plastic air mattresses to sleep on for the night. T________________T

But luckily the client saved us! They managed to finagle a couple of really nice rooms in one of the airport hotels (no easy feat cos all flights were canceled so everyone was scrambling for a room).

So this pregnant lady didn’t need to be homeless la hahahaha so grateful.

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Next morning it was all clear to go. The typhoon swept the skies clean and left us a farewell rainbow. :)

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Of childhood body soaps

The other day I had an event to attend.


Say hi to my date!

We were at a baby skincare workshop called “Are You Caring for His Skin The Right Way?” by Johnson’s Baby.


Our pose same as the mommy and baby on the stage backdrop or not? :D


When we had Fighter I automatically went and bought Johnson’s Baby skin products for him.  I didn’t even think much about it but I think it’s probably because *I* and Ooib used it as children and that’s always the brand I associate with early childhood.

Love sniffing Fighter after his bath too!  Cos he smells absolutely delicious and the smell is so nostalgic!!! It brings me back to memories of my own bathtub (which was blue cos my parents thought I was a boy wtf), and my grandma washing my hair (which I hated.  Don’t blame Fighter for grumbling during shampoo haha).


Besides the Total Body Wash, we also use the Wipes and the Talcum Powder.


Fighter stocking up on more wipes hahaha.


There was even a kids’ corner for them to play and do sand art….


While the adults listened to the Doktor Budak talk on baby skin going on behind me.

(Fighter doesn’t look that interested.  For your own good ok Fighter!)


Okay now he’s paying attention! ^^


Doktor Budak is a Malaysian volunteer-based online collaboration among children’s health specialists to answer questions on children’s health, and Johnson’s Baby worked with them to organise an interactive workshop to share practical tips and expert advice with moms on how to care for baby’s delicate skin during the Urban Mom 2014 road-show.

Learned a lot of trivia and tips!

For example, did you know that baby’s skin is 30% thinner than adult’s? No wonder its so soft and smooth… *strokes Fighter’s arm *wipes saliva

It also loses moisture way more quickly than adults’ during their first 12 months of life.

Which is why it’s so important we use the right baby-specific skincare and not random harsh soaps that may be unsuitable for baby skin.


Here’s Fighter’s routine!  He takes a morning bath every morning.  I use the Johnson’s Baby Top to Toe wash because easier hahaha. I used that as a baby too, nothing wrong with it ma.


After that, I pat him dry and apply baby lotion.  I use a special lotion which helps with eczema cos Fighter sometimes gets heat rash on his neck. :(  I blame it on him having a short neck wtf

Then rest of the body is normal baby lotion.  I started this routine cos I moisturize myself ma after my shower so I just applied it to Fighter.  But Doktor Budak confirmed it’s the right thing to do. ^^

At night he doesn’t bathe but I wipe him down with a warm wet cloth.  Then I apply Johnson’s baby powder to his neck so he won’t get itchy in his sleep.

Johnson’s Baby products are developed are clinically tested to be safe, mild and effective, ensuring that every product meets their “Best for Baby™ Standards:

safe – All ingredients are safe and supported by scientific evidence, tested with rigorous standards that meet or exceed accepted levels for safety, including the packaging and even the inks used for printing.

mild - Johnson’s Baby performs repeated tests of cleansing products, with the help of independent experts, to assess the product’s potential – from the cleansing agents to the fragrance and even its bubbles – to ensure products do not cause redness, stinging and irritation on baby’s skin, hair and eyes.

effective -  with proven benefits and efficacy to respect and care for baby’s unique skin needs.

I went Johnson’s Baby products mostly cos I think it’s tried and tested (from my own childhood).  It’s also effective, mild and most importantly safe.  I know there was some controversy about the ingredients in Johnson’s Baby containing formaldehyde.  Although scientific evidence showed it was actually safe, Johnson’s still listened to its consumers and removed it.  That was pretty responsible of them.:)

For more info, please visit Johnson’s Baby Facebook page.

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Bringing out baby

Saw this video on the  Friso Gold FB page.  There have been a couple of touching but heart wrenching videos about kids going around Facebook and… I’m quite pantang about things like this during pregnancy so I didn’t watch hahaha.  But don’t worry this video is a short and sweet one.

A couple of thoughts flitted through my head…


2. What has my child discovered today?

Actually Fat Her just brought this topic up recently.

We were at Fatty’s favorite bak kut teh place in Klang for lunch, and this time we brought Fighter along with us.  It was his first time actually cos the restaurant is the open, coffee shop kind.  I.e. no aircon, open air, a lot of noise and people and general havoc.  We were always paranoid before that Fighter would get hot (IKR), catch a bug or get hot water spilled on him but Fat Her approvingly said, “last time when you were small I used to take you to all sorts of places to expose you to different experiences.”

Then only I realized!  Actually we weren’t even thinking of that – we brought him to the bak kut teh place cos I was really craving it (-_-) and we wanted to let Fighter spend time with his grandpa hahaha.

That’s exactly what I’ve been trying to do though – to show him new things and experiences so he learns.  That’s why I signed him up for baby classes at Julia Gabriel.


I felt he could be exposed to more different experiences than we could provide at home.

(here he is playing with water soluble paint for the first time hehehe.)

As urban parents I think we’re too worried about our kids’ health and safety.  I read an article about how rural kids actually have less allergies compared to city kids, and one theory is because they’re exposed to more bacteria earlier and thus develop resistance.

Which is why it’s I believe it’s even more important to let kids get out there and gain new experiences.

Last week, I let Fighter play in the sandbox for the first time.  He touched and rubbed the sand but when I let him sit in it, he started wailing. T_T Heard from the school that other kids also like that, cos they’re all so used to clean, smooth surfaces so sand is a big shock to them. Mind boggling right!! That sand is a big shock???

So!  Let them get dirty it’s ok! Bring them to hawker stalls also ok.  Let them play with mud and grass.  Bring them for trips to new places (and it doesn’t need to expensive or overseas).  Resist the urge to scrub their hands with sanitizer every 5 minutes lol.  Let them learn and be kids and have fun. :D

You can see Friso’s FB page for more ideas and info. They have lots!


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On finding out… the second time


So….. This I was definitely not expecting. Pun not intended lolol.

This is the blog post that I wanted so badly to write two months ago but had to put off until now.

Truthfully, it’s not that easy to write because we did not plan for this.  And honestly it’s been a horrifically tough time for me.  We had no thought of another child anytime yet so this was a huge adjustment in thinking that we (okay fine, I) had to get used to.


Yup, like I mentioned, it wasn’t planned. -_-

Skip this part if you’re squeamish wtf.  I was still breastfeeding, my period hadn’t returned since I got pregnant, and we did use protection….. and it still happened. O_O

Wah lau Fighter number 2 la this one.

So when we found out, it was a huge shock to me.  So much so that I cried LOLOL.  And not out of joy, I’m sorry to say.

Here’s how we found out

Over the most shallow thing ever!!! I was going to make an appointment for Botox and fillers with DRx wtf.  It was something I’d been putting off for two years cos of the pregnancy and then breastfeeding so I was raring to go for a smaller face wtf.

But right before I booked the appointment, I thought hmmm okay just to be sure, let me just make sure I’m not pregnant (HAHAHA that’s a good one Aud wtf) first before I get my Botox.  I had one spare pregnancy test (some more Clearblue, the expensive one) left from before so I thought okay la use it in case it expires.

So went to the bathroom, sat down and peed.  When I was testing for Fighter I stared so hard at the test I thought I’d develop Xray vision wtf but with this one I just peed, then started cleaning up before remembering I was still holding the test.



Couldn’t believe my eyes.  I remember blinking hard to make sure I’m not hallucinating.  But in fact, I was so pregnant that the positive vertical line appeared way before the lighter horizontal line (and the line in the diamond window that shows the test is working).  I stared at that line wondering if I somehow misunderstood it.

My first words were, “ARE YOU F*CKING KIDDING ME?” *guilt

Fatty came running into the bathroom, I showed him the test and I burst into tears.

Fatty hugged me and asked, “why are you crying? You used to worry that you’d never have kids because of your PCOS so this is good news!”

At that moment I didn’t know why I was crying. But I was thinking, “I cannot do my Botox!!!” :X :X

When I finally managed to pull myself together I realized it’s not about the Botox.  I was crying because I thought I could finally claim my body back as my own after two whole years.  I wasn’t sustaining another human being with my uterus or my milk anymore; I was free! If I wanted to get Botox, I could without fearing it would harm my baby.  My body was my own again!  But not anymore.

Then I thought of having to start all over again – the whole pregnancy shebang, the sleepless nights, the non-stop pumping and being permanently hooked up to a fucking breast pump, the fear of colic, worrying the baby won’t latch, the spit-ups…. The near future looked as dark as the Dark Ages.

And then worst of all, the preeclampsia.  If it happens the first pregnancy, it’s likely to happen again.  And the worse and earlier you get it, the higher the chances of it recurring.  I thought of the weeks of hospitalization, the bills, the emergency C sect, and then the month of visiting a fighting infant in the NICU, and I cried more.  And I had a toddler now!  How could I easily spend weeks in the hospital away from him?  Would I be as lucky this time? If my future seemed dark earlier, now it seemed non-existent wtf.

The aftermath

My first trimester was bad.  With Fighter I had some mild nausea but no real vomiting.  With this Bump, I was throwing up every day.  After breakfast within the hour confirm vomit.  Sometimes in the evening.  Usually after a bumpy car ride.  Often at night after dinner too, or if I drank too much water (which was bad cos I was probably dehydrated).

I developed abs from all that puking.  A couple times what came up was tinged with blood probably cos I scratched my esophagus.  I puked so hard the blood vessels on my face broke fml.  And I started googling how much can I puke before my teeth start to rot wtf.

Because of all the puking (plus I was exhausted) I couldn’t carry Fighter for a while.  His weight pressing on my tummy made me feel sick and even playing peekaboo with him made me dizzy.  I asked nanny to take over the feeding cos I couldn’t even be in the same room as his porridge cos I found it damn smelly and puke-inducing.

As a result, Fighter suddenly lost attachment to me and started preferring Fatty and the nanny. T__________T

I was feeling like shit and so hormonal (and still grieving the loss of my freedom for another two years) so I cried buckets over this!  Every time he struggled to get out of my arms to Fatty or nanny, I cried.  Until Fatty even got scared of wanting to carry Fighter. :(

There were crazy times when I thought fine fine Fighter doesn’t want me I still have Bump *caresses bump

But I gotta say, the last three months were one of the worst of my life.  Perpetually feeling sick and vomiting daily, the stress thinking of how I was going to care for two babies, the guilt at not being happy, the fear of preeclampsia striking again, the jealousy and resentment whenever Fighter showed he preferred someone else over me… Those were harsh times wtf.

Eventually I got over it and somehow Fighter started loving me back again wtf.  My energy came back and my vomiting petered out significantly the last week!  I vomited this morning but I didn’t puke for almost a week before already.

As for the preeclampsia, my doctor put me on a daily regime of low dose aspirin which may help, although it’s not 100% fool proof.

When I visited the doctor two weeks ago and she scanned me, I saw Bump doing what looked like situps in my uterus. Lolol.  Training up your physique to meet Mommy hor, Bump?

I fell in love.


Taken at 14 weeks


If you ever read this, don’t think that mommy didn’t love you just because she wasn’t expecting you.  I already love you more than you’ll know (and probably more than you love me wtf).  If I cried before, it was the hormones (that are ironically keeping you well).  Blame the hormones!

While we can’t wait to see you, stay in there as long as you can ok? Don’t be like your kor kor who itchy backside wanted to see the world ASAP.



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The new Estee Lauder Anti Aging Cream Giveaway!

I was browsing my Downloads folder and came across…

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Old photos.  Just two years ago!  Photo on the left was taken the day after I left my first job (first day of freedom so very gung ho put on makeup wtf) and the one on the right was probably for some event.

Don’t count the more carefully applied eye makeup la but my face was so nice then. T_______T  Resolution not super high la so smoothness not really obvious, but it was plumper back then.  Firmer.


Discount the no makeup please hahaha.  But the aging process has definitely affected my face a bit la.  Even my dermatologist pointed out the very slight slack in my cheeks fml.


So yay for this! Another package from Estee Lauder!


To complement my collection of Estee Lauder, this is the Estee Lauder Revitalizing Supreme Global Anti Aging Cream.  (wow what a mouthful hahaha)

Revitalizing Supreme is a multi-action anti aging cream.  Applying it supports the natural activation of  the skin’s natural activation of longevity gene SIRT-1, allowing cells the extra time they need to carry out their restorative functions. As a result, skin is rejuvenated with a radiant, more youthful look over time.

Tailored for Asian skin, it targets the usual culprits of aging -

  • Loss of Firmness & Tone
  • Lines & wrinkles
  • Dullness, loss of radiance
  • Dryness, dehydration


It’s a light creamy color and has a faint fragrance!  I don’t like overpowering smells and the scent is a gentle faintly citrus-y one.


Texture is creamy but still light and smooth.


Applies smoothly and easily.  My skin is pretty dry so I prefer more heavy duty products that can pack more moisture and the Supreme fits the bill!  It also doesn’t leave a sticky or oily residue which works awesome for me.  (No hair blowing and sticking on my face hahaha.)  My skin feels smoother and … a bit more “boing boing” hahaha.

Overall a very nice anti aging product!  Easy and no fuss to apply, with instant moisturizing effect.


For best results, the Revitalizing Supreme is best used alongside the Estee Lauder Micro Essence and Advanced Night Repair!CIMG3175


According to research, after 4 weeks 92% of women reported significantly firmer skin.  I’ve only been using this for a week plus so…. let’s go!!


“You mean mommy’s skin can look like mine in 4 weeks?”


“I call it Fighter In a Bottle! HEHEHE.”


Don’t listen to him.


Do you want to try out the Revitalizing Supreme Global Anti Aging Creme for yourself?  You can get a sample here.

I have THREE jars to give away!

Thank you Estee Lauder for always being awesome to Fourfeetnine readers! :D :D

Just answer the question:

Who do you think deserves Fighter in a Bottle Estee Lauder Revitalizing Supreme Global Anti Aging Crème and why? :)

Remember to leave your email address for us to contact you!


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What I learned from my friendships

Okay! Introspective post time!  Recently some stuff happened that caused me to have a good long think about friendships and myself.

You know that personality test that goes ENTP or ISTJ or whatever? (Okay googled it’s called the Myers-Briggs test).  I did it years ago and while I can’t remember my exact personality type, it’s E— something (E standing for Extrovert).  I remember reading that people don’t necessarily remain the same personality type their whole lives and I scoffed, thinking please la I’d never be an I—- (Introvert) type.

Ah the vanity of youth wtf.

I haven’t done the test lately but I wouldn’t be surprised if I turned out an I— after all.  I do feel that I am quite a different person throughout different points in my life.  And my friendships and the people I am friends with reflect that.

So I was thinking about my friendships – present and past, friendships that stayed and those that didn’t – and realized that I’ve learned a lot about myself and about people.  Okay I say ah!

1. I learned to not crave attention so much wtf

Hahaha this one quite jialat.  And related to my personality as mentioned above. My best friend from high school and I were super close all the way through pre-university and when I went to college in the US.  But somewhere along the way, I started feeling neglected wtf.  She had her own life in KL with her own uni mates and I did too in the US but when I came home for summer, I wanted to spend more time with her (hahaha very clingy ah) but she had her own things and friends to tend to.

I don’t really think it was either of our faults but I remember her telling me that I was too used to being the center of attention so I couldn’t take it if I wasn’t in the limelight.

Jeng jeng jeng.

To be honest, I still don’t think that was the issue at hand.  For me it was genuinely about trying to resume our BFFship when I came home and expecting her to want to do the same but maybe she felt she couldn’t just wait around for me to come back.  Wah really like emo drama about LDR.

But anyway, what she said stayed with me until today.  I did love attention when I was younger, whether from girls or boys and I’d do funny or cute things or talk a lot or tell jokes to get it. Ironically, that craving faded the older I am.  Nobody likes being ignored but I’m content to be on the sidelines or not be in the middle telling jokes.

But I still always remember what she said.  And to that extent I consciously remind myself not to be too self-absorbed when I talk to friends (because I can be exactly that) and tell myself don’t talk so much about myself WTF and listen to them more.

Suet once said I’m an awesome listener but little does she know it’s something I force myself to do LOLOL.

2. To let them make their own mistakes

This is something I’ve learned very recently.  I dunno if it’s cos I’m too busybody la wtf but I used to get very very worked up over problems my friends faced.  Like if an ex was an asshole, I’d write them a nasty email all the way to London WTF (#truestory).  Or it it was a work problem, I’d look out for new opportunities for them.  If it was a hate comment on social media I’d go back and flame the fella wtf.  Or if I was afraid they’d make a bad decision I’d actively try to stop them either by physical force, or by haranguing them over the phone.  Or get angry and not talk to them or something.

More often than not, my efforts of course backfire.  Half the time I failed to help, and worse friendships would be affected (momentarily la luckily).  Because people just need to sort out whatever issues they’re having by themselves, not with a well meaning but possibly problematic friend interfering. *guilty.  Barring self harm, the most we can do as friends is just be there when we’re needed.

3. That people are not the same

Even if you’re friends.  You don’t necessarily share the same values, principles, or even the same views on what being a friend is.  I think I’m pretty good at seeing the other side in a conflict actually (that’s why cannot ever join debate team or be lawyer cos whatever the other person says Imma be like OH YA TRUE HOR OKAY LA MAKES SENSE.)

So if it’s differences in life priorities or even certain values or ethics that clash, those don’t really bother me cos I believe the people I’m friends with are generally decent people.  And that they treasure me as a friend in return.

Not to blow own horn or what but I think I’m quite a sincere friend la!  Once I’ve accepted you into my circle if I can help, I will.  (Even when you don’t want it wtf.  Which probably contributes to my kepohness and interference *grimace)  But in that sense I expect you to treat me the same as well?  If I need help, I do expect it especially if it’s something I don’t think is a big burden.  Unfortunately not everyone agrees, which is something I’ve realized recently as well.

Some people say that I shouldn’t be doing things for others because I expect reciprocity and that is true.  What’s the point of doing something nice only to store it away as a future favor?  But I thought about it and well, if I accept you as a friend I will help you however I can.  Do I expect you to do the same?  Yes but not because it’s tit for tat.  But because when I help you it’s because I care, so it’s a huge blow if it’s not reciprocated.  It means that either you don’t care enough, or you’re a taker, either of which isn’t good wtf.

That’s something I learned recently which affected me a fair bit.  I don’t know how it will impact my behavior in future, but it’s a good lesson learned – that not everyone shares the same values as you no matter how close you were.

4. To let it go.

And friendships come in pairs.  Younger, friends were a much more central focus of my life so I tried much harder to keep them.  But it’s impossible to do that if the other person doesn’t do the same.

If someone doesn’t return calls or emails there’s only so much you can do.  If someone refuses to talk to you after an argument there’s even less you can do.  Friendship works both ways but when something like this happens, it’s time to let it gooooo let it gooooo can’t hold it back anymoreeeeee wtf.

And that’s perfectly all right.  I learned it’s not something to get too upset about either because friends will come and go.  There will be one or two who will stick around forever but the majority of friendships fade in and out.  Sure you can say what really matters is – uhh to be cheesy – the memories but if you think back, I’m sure you can find what you gained or learned from it.  And hopefully, how it impacted you and shaped you for the better.


I wonder what this guy will learn from his friends?

Wah like this I think I can write another blog post like this but for ex boyfriends HAHAHA.


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Fighter facts

I’ve decided to do a weekly segment called BabyBloomer (yaya real creative) to update on what Fighter has been up to lately and what he’s achieved.

(not that anybody really cares la wtf cos it’s only interesting if it’s your own baby from your own uterus but more for my own remembrance’s sake)

Fighter is now 13 1/2 months!  11 1/2 months adjusted.

Attended B’s birthday party



This baby more happening than me.  I haven’t attended anybody’s birthday in my own capacity for like…. this whole year. >.>

Here’s Fighter and B (exhausted from all that partying) dressed in matching colors!  Serendipity or what?

Actually LC told me the theme is garden floral so I gung ho dig out my only floral dress and wear.  Nobody else wore!!! So I basically looked like the most hiao mother thanks guys hahaha.

Anyway Fighter obviously has no floral clothes so I made do with a pale yellow shirt with a bee embroidered on it.  And turned out LC and B also wearing pale yellow!  Theme colors were yellow, peach and white which I didn’t know about.

Anyway Fighter’s OOTD:-

Shirt from Platinum Mall, Bangkok
Jeans from Baby Gap
Shoes also Baby Gap

Two teeth!


Fighter recently (finally!) grew a tooth.  Then like 1-2 weeks later the other bottom incisor surfaced.  Now they’re both half grown and about equal size.

First McNugget


This is not a McDonald’s ad wtf.  But I was eating some nuggets in the car for lunch and he rudely grabbed a nugget and started chomping (with one tooth).  Did pretty well too and demolished the nugget!

But… there you go, fast food virginity taken hahaha.  I’m not super anal about everything being organic and sterilized for my child cos I believe they should be exposed to just normal stuff to build their immunities.  Plus everything in moderation ma not like I always feed him fast food.  He ownself grab one hahaha.

Taking the stairs like a boss


Just two days ago, Fighter was crawling around on the floor when he arrived at the foot of our stairs.  Then suddenly like Sir Edmund Hillary, he started scaling Mount Everest.

I was so worried he’d topple over backwards but he didn’t!  He just kept putting his hands out, then knee by knee forward. *beaming pride

It’s his new hobby now.  Put him on the floor and he’ll clamber over to the stairs right away.  Never mind if he’s panting by the time he reaches the landing hahaha.

Knows what to do with his drum set (sort of)


Hui Wen got him this drum set for his birthday and the most he did before was gingerly touch the base or something.

But recently he’s learned to pick up the drum sticks!  And beat the drum, although not with the drumstick wtf.

Picked up his first chick

DSC_0605Actually technically his first chick could be LC’s grandma WTF.

At B’s party, Fighter kept making eyes at LC’s grandma sitting at the next table so of course grandma swooned.  Apparently she’s still talking about him now LOLOL.

Then today he upped his game.

We took him to his first day of baby class and he instantly clambered over to this little girl sitting near him.  (face blocked for privacy)

And then he put his hand on her leg…

Little girl was unfazed.  She waved hello at Fighter who stared blankly back.  Then she put her hand on his hand!

Is this… could I be witnessing Fighter’s first romance?

And then… the little girl leaned forward and tried to kiss Fighter.

I burst out laughing at this.  Too cute!!! But the both of them got surprised and stopped what they were doing hahahaha.

So I guess you could also say this was…

Fighter’s first cock block

Sorry darling.  Mommy will be more discreet next time.


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