(title sounds like an essay topic or not hahahaha)
But I was doing my usual baby research — this time on diapers — and I came across Drypers.
Before I couldn’t even differentiate diaper brands — they all seem to have a picture of chubby cute babies naked except for a diaper on the front only hahaha. But a few of my mommy friends mentioned they use Drypers la so I went to look for more info.
Wah diapers also can be so high tech one ah! Ok la sign me up.
I’m not even a mom yet (well technically since Fighter is not out yet) but I already sense so many changes in me. It’s so weird because… well I never thought this would happen to me. Some of these I’ve already blogged about. For example…
1. Thinking about the future
All my angry/emo posts about Malaysian politics and the state of the country? All because I worry about the environment Fighter is going to grow up in.
2. Wanting to set a good example for Fighter
Cue my existential crisis blog post about being a capable enough person — someone my baby can look up to and who deserves to lead him and raise him to be a good human being.
3. Worrying about Fighter’s safety and health
Wah this one I tell you. I never used to worry about myself at all. I’m a very live in the moment type of person and at the back of my head I think I’m immortal, as opposed to Fatty who worries about everything and plans ahead.
Then the other day — this was a few months ago — I wanted to take a shortcut in our apartment parking lot. So I climbed over a waist high wall and jumped down. I was carrying extra weight by then so the landing impact jarred me quite a bit. And my knees hurt after that wtf.
Didn’t think about it until after an hour later when it occurred to me that I’m not supposed to do high impact stuff like that! Then I started worrying about the effect on Fighter. T_____T Of course nothing came out of it, but from being an extremely thoughtless person I now can’t stop worrying about this baby’s wellbeing. T_______T
First three months everyday worry like crazy about miscarriage. Every time I go to the toilet I cross my fingers hope I don’t see blood when I wipe. Then when Fighter started kicking, I worried if he DIDN’T kick. Then worry about whether he’s growing well. Whether or not he will be short fhl. Started worrying about his education now (true story.)
And he’s not even born yet! I can’t imagine when he is lol.
So from those three changes above, it sounds like… I’ve turned into an un-fun worrywart. Thanks Fighter lol.
But I guess this is all part and parcel of parenthood? And eventually it will all be worth it. I very hormonal now I think that my parents must have gone through all this and more for my sake I wanna cry. Thank you Mummy and Daddy T____T
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As for me Imma keep recording my changes here. Fatty and my journey has only just started!