It’s that time of the year again! The time of the year I usually hate because it means…the year is nearly over! I like the old year, what’s wrong with the new? Lol.
Also cos It means I’ll be another year older hahahaha.
But every year around this time I try to make it a point to look back and reflect on my year… What I did, what I learned, any big stuff that happened. So here goes!
1. I learned to be a mom
Truth be told, I don’t really feel like I did a lot this year. Most of my time was tied to raising Fighter and while you know, everyone says it’s a huge job, noble task, etc, it doesn’t sound like much to say that’s what I did for most of the year.
The basics I learned last year – how to change his diaper, how to nurse him, how to bottle feed him, how to bathe him and put on diaper cream and powder him. But all this is easy peasy compared to what comes next.
I got to know him better and found out he’s a real person and not just a potato lying there! He has likes and dislikes and a distinctive personality.
I found he’s allergic to fish. Figured out which eczema/rash cream works for him (It’s Atopiclair btw, not Aveeno). Got to know his favorite foods – French fries, bread, and baby biscuits. Weirdly he doesn’t like mashed potato, pasta or cheese. -_- He likes rice and soup though so we definitely have a little Asian on our hands wtf.
I realized he’s bubbly and cheerful and talkative but also has a bad temper and can be very willful when he doesn’t get his way. D: Sometimes I can coax him into doing things but if he doesn’t want to, it’s a battle of the wills. One which I’m determined to win wtf *fist bump. On the other hand he’s also super loving and sweet, kissing me every morning and giving me hugs when he’s in the mood.
And…. I got to learn more the more HE learned. When he learned to climb the stairs I learned how to follow behind him with my arms out in case he fell. For tantrums and fits of temper, I devised a naughty corner to put him in. Learned what’s funny to him (weird noises and faces wtf babies) and now in his eyes I am the world’s funniest comedian wtf. Learned how to soothe him when he’s upset. Learned how to speak to him and was amazed by how much he understands. Also amazed by his current stubbornness to say please wtf rude lo this baby.
So many other things la! And the thing is, every year I will keep learning more and more. More and more facets of his personality will show up which I will need to learn and adapt to. Every step of his growth and maturation I will need to learn new ways of relating to him and raising him. So I guess this point – learning to be a mom – will stay with me my whole life. *gulps
2. I wish I had more time to blog
I think I do fairly well in updating… but I wish I had more time to focus on it. As a college student with a thesis I feel like I didn’t have as much to think of as I do now. Either that or my multi tasking skills went down the drain wtf.
But thanks to a Fighter and work commitments as well as blogging work, I ended up not having as much time as I’d have liked to think about what I wanted to blog about and like every year I feel like I’m crafting haphazard blog posts which I could have done better. But oh well every year also I say the same thing wtf.
3. Traveled a little bit
Compared to one year BC (Before Children), we didn’t travel much! But we still made it to…
Tokyo for a short trip (Fatty had a conference)
To LA…and Vegas (Fatty had another conference hehe)
Nagoya with Bobo
4. Had a fight with a friend,
It wasn’t even a fight to be honest. It started off as a disagreement which I thought we were in the process of talking over but then it escalated quickly wtf. I do blame her for handling things the way she did though and for effectively ruining a friendship that could easily have been saved. As it is, because she avoided working things out and kept doing more stuff which didn’t help, the friendship is effectively over.
Mummy Ooi commented she was surprised I couldn’t forgive and forget cos I normally do that damn easily wtf. But it’s because this time I didn’t have closure. I need to have it out with the other person, hear their side of the story and then I can move on. But since I didn’t have this, it still eats at me.
So I guess a lesson to be learned this year is to move from conflict without resolution. It will take me years confirm wtf but there ain’t nothing I can do about it. :X
5. Threw Fighter a birthday party
And probably the last wtf. Too much work even though I had awesome sponsors hahaha.
But still it’s a must-do la! And I’m still marveling at the fact that I even had a one year old to throw a party for. :O
6. Found out we’re having another baby
Yes I may have cried when I first found out wtf.
It was a huge adjustment. I felt like I haven’t even properly settled myself sometimes and I already have to take care of a toddler who can’t even walk yet wtf and now I have the life of another helpless baby in my hands. T___T
And… OK I was crazy and hormonal ok hahaha. But you know what I was thinking during those few days of disbelief? I thought with one baby I can still be a cute young mom. But with two?? I’d be damn old and auntie la WTF. My illogical logic was that with two kids or more I’d seem damn old and haggy cos I’d been in the baby-making business long enough to not have one, but two kids. Hahahaha. Thankfully I got over that stupid frame of thought.
I’m so excited I have Bump growing inside me now. Hello Bump when you come out I fist bump you ok wtf.
7. Actually became less vain
I used to be obsessed with taking photos of myself and admiring them WTF. But I gotta admit… Fighter is way cuter hahaahha. So why waste memory space on me when I have this perfect little guy here who doesn’t need makeup or filters to look this cute!
I still love dressing up and doing makeup all but sometimes at the end of a long day I be like har still need to remove makeup ah next time don’t do better wtf.
But something happened last weekend and I was a bit angry at myself wtf. See, for some reason we keep bumping into Fatty’s cousin and his girlfriend at the airport. Three times already! The last two times we were all on the same flight to and from Penang together.
Anyway every time I see her, the girlfriend is perfectly made up. They’re still in the honeymoon phase and even at the airport she looks damn good. Perfectly tousled beach waves hair, carrying some designer bag on her shoulder. Ray Bans perched on her head and super cute sandals.
Me? Carrying a wriggling toddler with my shirt half hiked up cos he’s pulling on it. I’m wearing big baggy shirt and leggings and flats cos I wanna be comfy on the flight. Hair is half straight half curled cos it was from the day before and I couldn’t be bothered to redo it for the plane hahaha. On one shoulder is a diaper bag, on the other shoulder is a cloth shopping bag as handbag (cos can put on plane floor without worrying about it getting dirty) omg my logic is also so auntie I can’t even hahahaha.
Worst of all, the trip to and from Penang I was wearing the same outfit WTF. She must think I damn gross never wash clothes la hahahaahha.
I told Fatty this and he said, “what about me?”
He was wearing his pajama tshirt HAHAHAHAHAHA. What has parenthood done to us.
So that was my year to date!