AudSuay

The new face of failure

(sorry Ally to borrow a line from you)

She said she’s the new face of failure but stfu la you’re doing your Masters in Melbourne how much of a failure can you be T_T

Boys and girls, I present to you  the REAL new face of failure.


WTF

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHA IT’S LEROY’S OLD FAT PIC I couldn’t resist putting it up wtf.

Sorry ar Leroy.

And Eeflin. wtf.


There.  The really real face of failure T_T

I HAVE NO IDEA WHAT TO DO WITH MY LIFE

Stay here do OPT and risk using thousands more of the Ooi  cash reserves?

Join the Peace Corps?

Go to Japan to teach English?

Wash dishes in a Chinese takeout in Vancouver?

Go back to KL and log on to jobstreet.com.my?

Marry a rich man?

The options are endless!

I feel like I’m spiralling into a black hole wtf.

Nobody is getting back to me on jobs yet T________T What if I don’t get an answer by the time I graduate!  MHC is going to kick me out on the streets and then what T________T

I really want to stay here and use my Optional Practical Training (international students get a year to work here before needing to apply for working visas)

But nobody has gotten back to me how!!! Did I leave it for too late cos I only started applying in earnest like a week or two ago wtf.

Or is it the US recession? *convinces myself so I don’t feel like a failure wtf.

I don’t want to go back to Malaysia just yet….I dunno I feel like I have the whole world before me so why would I want to run back to a place where I don’t feel I would grow?

Ok whole world before me is overstating things a bit because apparently I am not marketable wtf.

I guess worse comes to worst, I just go back to KL first and explore my options to get to Japan?  Cos I really wanna go back there and live again…

Haih fuck this shit life is hard la harh wtf.

Some more my luck seriously damn suay.  I dunno is it because I’m stupid or really unlucky because although I wouldn’t say that everything bad happens to me but seriously a lot of tiny bad things happen to me that cause me problems and just make everything harder for me to achieve or even get through something I am doing wtf.

Like packages for me get lost in the mail with extraordinarily high frequency.  Planes, trains and buses break down on me surprisingly often.  Buy things then next day go on sale wtf.  Go for interview but rains/car breaks down/job cancelled when I arrive (true story)

Dunno what else a lot some more.  Everyone around me notices it ok I am not exaggerating my bad luck is infamous T_T

Even Suet and Angela are afraid to go with me one on one on trips because when Suet and I tried to go to Singapore for her MHC interview once, we missed train after train after LRT and never made it out of the country T_T

And then when Suet went with me to Boston she was wondering why nothing bad happened to her so far (cos apparently when other people are alone with me my bad luck affects them wtf) and then she realized she left her bag on the bus T_T

And on the way back from Vancouver Angela and I got delayed a few times for a total of 12 hours wtf.

So this totally makes me think that nobody will ever answer my job applications and I will spend my life borrowing money from Fat Her Ooi and eating in food courts wtf.

Please comment and tell me that you’re in my situation or was in my situation it would make me feel so much better T__________T

Comments (42)

  • HAHAHAHAH where did you get Jin Shern’s pic from? *feigns ignorance

    Worse comes to worst you can be a hairdresser don’t lie I know you want to

    HUGS you’ll manage 🙂 You always do sayang

    aud: would you let me practice on your hair/shy HAHAHA ya i wonder where i found his pic….

  • at least your options are endless *encouraging look

    aud: *sit and stare out of the window wtf

  • hahahah you’re damn funny, good luck in everything.

    anyway where are you at right now?

    aud: haha thanks. im in the states now

  • Hello and welcome to life, Audrey.

    Now you know where the saying “Life’s a Bitch” comes from.

    Because you get fucked in all sorts of different directions you dunno whose disease you’re getting from.

    It’s ok, we all go through that stage. It’s called quarter life crisis. But hey, after that things will be ok. We all get through somehow.

    aud: why u so formal call me audrey somore wtf. and why your comment so pessimistic so means what what should i do!

  • if u come here you can stay with me till u find a place!!!!! 🙂

    *hugs* sure can find one, aud! 🙂 have you tried monster.com hehehe. okay you prolly have. 😛

    aud: haha monster.com sucks la! the jobs all damn crappy wan. haha can i stay with u! how about the ppl ur staying with would they mind!

  • Ur entries seemed happy from Kyoto…maybe some time as a JET would work out best for ya…

    aud: you think so?:)

  • wtf steal my copyrighted line wait i patent it then you have to pay me royalties wtf wtf. and i’m failing AT my masters ok T_T u think what accounting and financial modelling very easy ah hah hah???

    i vote u keep applying for jobs cause then i’ll be able to visit the states in july hu hu! selfish reasons wtf

    aud: masters how can fail wan! if fail means what?

  • hang in there.. for every bad thing that happens, good things will follow… u’ll see..

    aud: thank u:)

  • hey.. i totally get u. it’s my last 2 months of uni and i still dunno wat i m gonna do. either stay in uk to look for work/apply for masters or go back home which i dun wanna at the moment. it seems like a waste to go back home so fast, u get wat i mean? sigh.. *pats pats* but everything will work out fine i m sure, just tough it out for a few more months = )

    aud: i guess i do want to tough it out…but toughing it out means spending a lot more that i don’t want my parents to have to shell out:(

  • HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA FACE OF FAILURE GAPGAP HAHAHAHAHA

    wah thank god he grew up looking macho ok HAHAHAHAHAHAH WAH I CANNOT STOP LAUGHING HAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!

    in the words of wenloong, “why u think he’s called fei chai harh?” WTF HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!

    aud: HAHAHAHAHAH hes not the face of failure la he knows exactly where he’s going in life ok T___________T

  • Marry a rich man sounds goodXDD no just kidding.. but you’ll be ok, you have lots and lots of time to decide:))

    aud: yea do you know any? haha thanks

  • I’m stuck in the same situation. But worse. Coz I’m starting to worry 2 years in advance. wtf. What to do after Masters…

    aud: u have 2 years its ok! lots of time to think. i got 2 months T_T

  • eh aud don’t panic *pats head soothingly in a grandmotherly fashion wtf*
    the average job search is 4 months wei and tell u what, mine was about 2 and it felt like it was the longest period ever in my life T_____T
    i mean i was this seething contradictory mass of emotions to start with when graduation neared, and also scared shitless at being turfed out of uni wtf. then when i graduated came the endless days of applying for jobs online and having lots of spare time on my hands, which wtf is the worst thing ever ok.
    i mean it sounds great and all but 1, you don’t feel like doing anything (not even go to the mall or do your hair wtf, or is that just me ar wtf), damn sien 2. when you do do anything non-jobsearch related, then the guilt kicks in.
    i almost drove myself crazy ok wtf -_________-
    then i got a job, which i admit i took because i was panicked wtf and needed the money wtf and didn’t feel right about using any more of mom’s money and god i lived to regret that decision. on day 3 i only found out the previous person left inside of a week ok, i lasted a month *brave wtf*
    eh i damn cheong hei lah, but kesimpulannya, don’t panic wei cos you’ll make the wrong decision like me wtf *face palm* and don’t be mercenary and only think of money wtf. but damn you have a lot of choices lah babe, more than me wtf. katak bawah tempurung wtf.

    aud: *manjas wtf. but u were lucky cos you still had somewhere to stay even after u finished school? i dont T_T

  • Hey~ I’m a somewhat new reader here~ ^^” .. *has no idea what idea to do with her life either* … I can’t even decide what course I should do in uni/where to study after pre-u *sigh*

    I guess it happens to everyone ^^

    If you’re going back to Malaysia and still want to go to Japan, I suggest JET too~ *really wants to go on it but has to wait at least 4 years more -_-“*

    haha what pre-u are u doing now?

  • i met a private equity investor and he said i’ve a smart daughter to go to moho. ok la, for that, i lend money

    aud: better still, ask the investor if he wanna hire me

  • im waiting for admission to the uni now. and if i dont get in, that’s it! i dont know what to do without a degree. and the filming industry is damn small, even if i did get a filming degree, i doubt i’ll get a film-related job in singapore. so at the end of the day it’s like i’d made a wrong choice right from the start, should have taken business or something more practical.

    and my whole life of unfortune is even too long for me to start. dont worry, u’re not alone la cos im the most unlucky person i’ve ever known sigh.

    aud: hahaha why u unlucky some more? hahaha good luck for your admission ok! eh before this then u were doing diploma ar?

  • hi…i’ve been reading your blog for quite awhile
    i would suggest you to teach english in japan because apparently, english teachers are highly paid in japan and korea
    i have a friend teaching english in a korea high school, and she gets around rm8000+ per month
    i am sure that the pay in japan will be much higher

    aud: ya ive heard english teachers in japan get paid a lot too:) thats one of my options but i dunno how easy it is to get in

  • babe i think going japan will be the best choice for you since you like it there and you can speak japanese..so yay come back to msia with me this summer! *manipulating wtf
    and no lah your luck is not that bad recently right….? like erm..*tries to think of an example but fails miserably wtf

    aud: why u n my bro like this! he only wants me to come back so i can layan joel while he layans you wtf joel is gay anyway why doesn’t he get a guy to do it wtf

  • Errr, go to s’pore to explore your options to go to Japan, and then go with me to Japan???!!! ‘Cause I dam,n like Japan also! Although I have only been there for a week wtf.

    On second thought, since you so bad luck nowadays, err, scrape the plan WTF.

    aud: haha would you move to japan with me? /boo wtf WHY U LIKE THAT AHAHA BAD LUCK SO DONT WANNA ASSOCIATE WITH ME ISIT

  • Audrey darling. Don’t let things drag you down. There’s a period in our life where we encounter all these misfortune. One thing that I know for sure, we just can’t force things to happen. You can’t swim through a high current, isn’t … hang in there xo

    aud: hehe why ur comment sounds so inspiring. its not that im forcing things to happen…i just dont know what i should do right now T_T

  • Drey, DO THE OPT…
    Seriously..
    i mean being LOVED by everyone and your super cute n endearing FAT HER.. You arent ANYWHERE close to the word FAILURE my dear…
    You ONLY FAIL WHEN YOU STOP TRYING…
    Hugs and no worries..
    sometimes, the more you want something.. the more you wouldn’t get it..
    No worries..
    GOOD THINGS only HAPPENS to GOOD ppl…
    So fret not!
    Not only are you GOOD.. You are PREFECT my dear…

    Most importantly is to follow your heart but of course in respect for your parents too…
    Coming back to KL for one good month to rest aint such bad thing overall.

    Have a nice weekend my dear..

  • *Babe…
    Oops, i did it AGAIN.. Calling your DREY..
    LOL..
    I am sorry..

    aud: haha no la i dont mind drey…just weird cos noone calls me that. i would love to try for opt…but there’s a lot of financial issues to be considered as well 🙁

  • Hi…..we’re in the same boat=(….in fact i could be your co-captain lah….graduating in less than two months and still no job offer..eh let’s blame it on the economy okay…

    If it makes you feel better, I believe my life can be made into a daily sitcom of a living breathing klutz….natural disasters always happen day before or day after i am leaving back for states after summer vacationT_T….first it was tsunami, then it was haze, last was apparently the hotel i was staying in Thaland caught fire after I flew back to the states okay

    aud:cocaptain hahaha T_T ya seriously la its the economy nobody’s hiring *sour. haha eh dont talk about natural disasters la! people died in them okay how to compare with us who are still safe and alive T_T

  • aiyah you know i am in your situation la. i told you i’m going to boston to look for a job, but july something is my grandma’s 85th bday and my mom wants everyone to go to penang for it. i have a feeling that if i fly back for that, i wont be back again!! (who pay for my ticket?)

    also, OPT costs like $340 -_-” BUT they extended it u know? the new rules are quite unclear now… i am waiting for more news la. but must apply before u graduate ok… apply next week!

    aud: ya 340! thts why im reluctant to apply for it until the last minute = = have you applied? the same for me la if i go back to kl imma never leave SEA again hahaha

  • ya, just graduated from my japalang diploma. must take degree more specialised, if not it all boils down to nothing.

    actually im thinking of doing directing in taiwan, but easier said than done la. it’s just a dreeeeam T________T

  • i think they’ve extended the OPT term according to my bro who is on the new OPT… anyway, how long have you been looking for a job? don’t just try job websites, go to individual company websites and look at their career opportunities.

    Plus, if you’ve gotten no replies after 2 months or so, don’t limit your job search to a particular city or state – broaden it.

    Also, your resume is very important – don’t just send out the same resume to every company, tailor it according to what the company is looking for. I’ve helped look at /edit resumes etc and those people found jobs eventually.

    you may need to find lodging if mt hol is going to “kick” you out of their dorm after u grad. it’ll be hard to get an apt by yourself because u’re not a student and don’t have income etc – so bunk in with a trustworthy friend.

    I encourage anyone who has the chance to work in US to give it a shot, so that u won’t regret later in life. I have many people telling me they wished they had the opportunity to work here and u have it now so don’t waste it!

    long message but I’ve been in the US for quite a while and so drop me a comment or email if you need help or advice. I’ve been there and done that and also have helped people – so don’t hesitate at all!

  • actually i know someone who is rich *and* hot:D but he lives here and you’re there and it’s a problem:PP

  • haha which part of states are you in?

  • hmm.. new OPT regulations huh? you better read up on the USCIS.gov site. and good luck in your job hunt! i agree with some of your readers comments. you should look at the companies individual websites.. and try to broaden your location. i think the south are hiring like crazy. try atlanta!!

  • anyone reading aud’s blog know somebody who can hook me up with a job in hospitality/ event planning (US pref. ) >_

  • whats ur major aud? apply for opt . its recession now thats why its harder but hang it there, you;ll be A okay!

  • I started to look for my first job in USA 6 months before I graduated. 6 freaking long months…. went to lots of interviews, sent out a lot of application letters, called many many companies. 1 week after my graduation, I got a job. You have to know that it’s a big competition out there and with recession, yes, Bush won’t admit it, pussy, it’s freaking recession now. Plus you are fresh graduate it will take a while but DO NOT GIVE UP. Try big cities for jobs, more opportunity. My company still hiring like crazy even with bad economy because it’s in SF, we still have big corporation and international projects. So broaden your job search, LA, Miami, NY, Dallas, Texas, Austin, SF, etc.

  • I’m doing SAM XD. But I’m kind of regretting, thinking that I should’ve taken A Levels instead -_-“

  • don’t sad ok aud, see so many people believe in you. are you the wind beneath their wings wtf. if you are make sure they wear deodorant if not got bau ketiak wtf wtf.
    and WTF why your father so funny wan ahahahahah, i can see where you and barry get your sense of humour from =P
    eh yeah lah, i think aus universities don’t have as many residential dorms as US colleges wei. if had to work to pay the rent aka someone else’s mortgage, so heart pain also lah in the end. lose lose situation wtf. pay rent and pay off someone else’s investment property, don’t pay and end up homeless and living in a dumpster wtf wtf

  • I also think you shud stay la seriously OPT is like once in a life time chance wtf working visas will be even harder to get in the future and like u said u might just stay in msia forever. since u hav the work permit to work in US then u shud do whatever u can to stay. maybe u will find a job after grad who knows right. and be more initiative like call the companies, write them emails askin about the review of ur resume … etc or even just write them emails just for a chat to ask what kind of people they are really lookin for and willing to hire (learned from CDC wtf) GOOD LUCK SOULMATE /boo i have faith in you !!

  • I went to uni to do a degree thinking that I could live off my parents for life. Unfortunately I got a job before I graduated, and another after graduation. I was too scared to apply for a 3rd job after that. I am now a workaholic and have no time to travel. I say you travel the world while you can. Otherwise come to HK to shop with me. Good luck! x *teleports a cute donut*

  • ^__^ i know – i don’t mean you forcing. You will know when the time is come …
    I sounds very old he lol …

  • thats the ID card photo of a true champ right there wtf

    thanks a lot la ah sou. now the whole world knows how a penis head truly looks like wtf

  • no la i honestly think u should stay in us first for opt or wahtever.. and to get funds just work part time somewhere first la be it sales girl or lancome girl or waitress.. just to get you through until you find a proper job. cuz like in US im sure if you work as waitress or sales girl or what also you can afford to pay rent at a crappy place isnt it? dont worry my love u’ll get through it. cuz if u dont do your opt or wahtever when you come home that’s it for you la cuz once u go back it’s so hard to come out again to look for a job in america. =(

  • ….seems like the best options are japan and us but then include the whole continent la namely vancouver hahaha, meaning going home first is really not the best option atm. after all home is where u can return to whenever and its best to have a network of support (of peers with similar goals) during such disspiriting times as the jobhunt and work parttime have no fear u’re trashwoman!*superhero music play in the background

  • hey. may i know wheres the video clip you did on hair curling? thanks.

  • meet failure face no.2 : )
    ganbatte desuyo

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