Update! I’m still in the hospital wtf. With no sign of being able to leave. T___T
Preeclampsia is a progressive condition so my blood pressure has been steadily increasing. D: When I was first admitted, it was about 130/90 and now without medication it’s up to 180/110. D: I’ve also started getting headaches which are another symptom and more nose bleeds which the nurses say is cause of the high BP.
Doctor is still titrating the drug dosage to figure out what’s a stabilizing figure since my BP is still super unstable. So I guess I’m stuck here for the time being.
Being in the hospital for a week now, I’ve obviously had a lot of time to think. For the past couple of days I think I was also emotionally quite unstable; every time my BP reading came back high I’d start crying and poor Fatty would have to comfort me. But maybe now I’m used to it already. 160? Oh ok *continues watching Modern Family
But like I said, I had a lot of time to think. And I think despite all this I still consider myself quite lucky la!!
1. I’m very popular WTF. No la I mean very loved hahahah. I’ve been here a week and everyday got people come to visit, or at least calling/texting to check how I am! Thank you so much everyone you know who you are. It really does distract me and makes me feel better!
These balloons in particular from Bobo & Jo, and Lay See & Pierre.
2. All the caring messages from readers on social media and email and everything
Mummy Ooi was very worried about me blogging about this; she worried that it was pantang (taboo) because haters might be happy with the misfortune that had befallen us and wish us further ill. But it was important to me to blog about this because… I wanna document this la for the future. And everyone has been so overwhelmingly caring and supportive I’m glad I did! I haven’t had time to reply your comments and emails but I have been reading all and I just wanna thank you guys for cheering me up and being so supportive!
Sometimes on bad days I look at comments that say they had preeclampsia at like 36 weeks and delivered and everything is ok, and feel resentful cos 36 or 37 weeks is perfectly safe and if I was at 36 weeks myself I would be so happy already. All we want is to get Fighter to 34 weeks now!!! But that’s just me in a bad frame of mind and I know that people are just trying to comfort me. So thank you all! I really do appreciate your comments and for making us feel not alone. 🙂
3. At least Fighter is 29 weeks now.
It could be worse. He could be even younger and therefore even more fragile! 29 weeks is still dangerous, but with today’s technology, babies born at 29-30 weeks have a very high chance of survival and while there’s a chance of short term and mid term problems, the incidence of long term disabilities is still better than if he was younger.
I still think I’m immortal wtf so I didn’t think too much about myself but I’m terrified that Fighter will have physical or intellectual disabilities I don’t think I could stand it. T______T But we just keep reminding ourselves that it could be worse.
4. I have an awesome husband
Say before la hahaha. But I’m so thankful that Fatty has been so strong about this and I can lean on him. He’s super optimistic about things too. And best of all, I think our relationship has actually gotten even stronger and that we’re good for each other in times of crisis.
It was our first year wedding anniversary last Saturday!
We were hoping to get home leave to go out for dinner for a few hours but my BP spiked that night so it was a no-no. D: Fatty showed up at my bedside with flowers though as a surprise. T3T
5. We can afford the bills
Some nights I cannot sleep cos I’m fretting over the piling costs wtf. But at least we can still pay la as opposed to news articles of people you see who ask for donations for operations and stuff. T3T
6. It was detected early
I think we were quite lucky we detected it quite early when it was quite moderate! Imagine if we didn’t and something went horribly wrong! Like I had a stroke wtf or Fighter’s development was seriously affected. At least now we know and are taking measures to counter it.
7. Can see Fighter earlier!
Obviously if can I wanna wait till the bun is fully cooked before taking it out of the oven wtf but you have to take what you can get.
And one of the best parts (barring Fighter being unwell of course) is that we get to see him earlier than expected!!! Confirm he will be here by 34 weeks can only hope he stays in as long as that.
Last week’s ultrasound scan of him. Hemsem or not hahahaha.
And this is a picture of a preemie baby Suet showed me. Chilling in its incubator HAHAHAHA DAMN CUTE. Pillow pattern looks like disco lights some more then wearing shades hahahaha too much.
This photo gives me hope that Fighter will be fine. 🙂
Comments (94)
Fighter will be fine.. don’t worrynU just have to be very positive and stay strongnI know a story about a young mom-to-be who suffered preeclampsia too, even worse, she suffered for kidney leak as well. Normally weight about 50 kg, but during pregnancy her weight skyrocketing until 100 kg due to this. She ate 8 eggs per day to keep protein level at normal rate. Doctor even said if something went wrong and not taken care of immediately, either one of the baby or the mother could passed away. But now the little girl is already 6 months old and very healthy, so cute somemore.. mom also healthy, weight is around 60 kg now. All is back to normal. Coz the mom keep being positive and everyone around her are very caring and super supportive. So, knowing that u also have a very good support team, I know that u and fighter will be okay.
take care audrey! we, ur lovely readers will pray for u! be strong!
get well soon!
Dear audrey, be strong! Hang in there fighter!
Hi aud, nnHang in there! My cousin delivered her baby boy at week 28 due to preeclampsia. All is well for baby and mother after few months. No disabilities / anything bad. 🙂 jiayou! nnJiayou!
hey audrey, i’ve been ur reader for quite a while now mayb for a few years but rarely left comments. just thought of tellin u to keep strong n u’ll b ok bcz ur in good hands. n i met a baby who was born 26 weeks now bout 2 years old..doesnt have disability so yea be strong!
Hi Audrey!nnI’ve been a reader of yours for about 4-5 years since I was hmm about 16? haha. nHave never commented before but i’d really like to send my positive support to you and Fighter :)nnStay strong and keep being as optimistic as you are now! You and Fighter will be fine! :)nnCheers.
Hi Audrey, this is my first time leaving comment here and all I want to say is stay strong and take care! Fighter is born to be a real fighter and he will be fine!
Stay positive is the way to go! U and fighter will be fine
Get well soon, Audrey! Praying for the best for you, Tim and Fighter 🙂
Hi Audrey, keep your spirits up and stay strong!
I have my fingers crossed for you and your baby. This must be an incredibly hard time and it is great that you have so much support from your family, friends and (most importantly) your husband!n
Hi audrey!! Get well soon.. My prayer is with you and fighter…
Audrey! Maximus! It’s awesome you’re both doing your best!nYou can doooo eet! *dances* We believe in you guysssss!!!!!!
praying hard for you that everything will be smooth and safe and mom and son will be a-okay!!
He will be fine!!!!!! Stay strong <3
get well soon!! 🙂
Fighter will be fine!!! jiayou audrey jiayou fighter!!! 😀
Audrey we will pray for u ,fighter will fight against this, be happy all the time ,do deep breathe always,my doctor told me do so =)
Jiayou Audrey!!! it will be okay!!! ^^ have faith!!! both you and fighter will be super healthy at the end of this scare!! so just stay happy and optimistic!! you know that whatever God that exists love you and your hubby and fighter! and you know that we love you too! we will pray.to whatever God that exists for you till everything is over! so stay strong!!!
Hi Aud! nDont worry too much, all will be fine for both you and Fighter!nAm constantly praying for the wellbeing of both you and Fighter (and Tim as well). Its great that you are being optimistic coz optimism is best at times like this. My mum had something like this when she had my sister and it caused her to be admitted into hospital for almost 3 months! But my sister came out healthy (and also chubby and cute!) and now damn smart ah wtf. Maybe when Fighter grows he also will become damn smart eh like my sister ahaha. nJust stay happy and cheerful and I really do hope you get well soon :))) jia you hwaiting gambateh!!!
Stay strong Audrey! You all will be well and good. Take care!!
Hi audrey, I’ve been a silent reader of your blog – which I absolutely enjoy reading. Having followed your blog for sometime, I want to reassure you that Fighter and you are both going to be fine. Fighter can feel his mommy’s immense love for him from within the womb and he will continue to fight on with his mommy to ensure a safe delivery. Talk to Fighter often cos that will have a positive effect *hugs* will keep you in my prayers. Stay strong and take good care Audrey….Ps: both tim and you are going to be awesome parents to Fighter
Fighter will stay inside and come out healthily later. Jia you!! Stay positive so can give positive energy to Fighter too <3
Stay strong Audrey! we will keep u in our prayers. u r stronger than u know! just 4 weeks to go! FIGHTING!!!
Sending love, prayers and positivity all the way from Indonesia! Stay strong Aud, i have a boy too, i can only imagine how u must be feeling, wishing for all the good luck in the world for u and Fighter!
Hi audrey! Its Adreanna from prenatal exercise class. Hope you can vaguely remember me. Haha. Hope you’re feeling better and I know your baby will be a-ok! Coincidentally we share the same gynae and we both know she’s amazing so you’re in good hands! Stay strong and best wishes x
Wishing you the best!
You have such a great outlook on life and positivity which is rare these days, even though you are 4 foot 9, you are truely someone people can look up too. Love your blog.
Hi audrey, it’s my second time chancing upon your blog and got to know of your condition. ): i wish you a speedy recovery and all the best to you and fighter! don’t worry cause everything will be fine (: may God be with you and your family. Best wishes!
Seems like Fighter can’t wait to meet you and is asking to come out sooner :)nnStay positive and best wishes!
I’ve been hoping you will be updating us (readers) on your progress! Am glad that you did, and you are being so positive. stay strong and finger cross (prayers too!) that everything will be fine! xx
Audrey! Although I might not know you but I hope the best for you and your baby!
Hi! Though I’ve been one of your silent readers, and would only comment once in a blue moon 🙂 being a mom myself, I too had a very difficult pregnancy and almost lost my son thrice. Your’e being positive which is really rare these days is a breath of fresh air. Prayers to you, your husband and Fighter from us here in Manila. Stay strong and best wishes!
I’m only 17, & obviously know nothing about pregnancy, but I’m pretty sure you’ll get through this!!! Get well soon, we, as in all of your readers will be praying for you! ☺
Hi! I’ve started reading your blog quite some time ago and have been a silent reader. But I wanna comment this once, at least. Be strong and be positive. Everything will be alright. Your baby is a fighter anyway ^_^ Hope everything goes well 🙂
i strongly believe u and baby are going to be fine, don’t worry. 🙂 And Fighter will be a healthy, chubby baby.
Hi Audrey! I’m one of your reader and currently started blogging because I’m so inspired by you. I really wanna show my support for you. Stay strong and have faith! You and Fighter will go through this smoothly. Keep thinking positive and all good things will come your way! Fighting!!!
Hi Audrey! I’m one of your reader and currently started blogging because I’m so inspired by you. I really wanna show my support for you. Stay strong and have faith! You and Fighter will go through this smoothly. Keep thinking positive and all good things will come your way! Fighting!!!
hoping for the best for you and your baby!! god bless :)))
I can totally feel you. I’m hitting my 29th week in 2 days time! I sure things will go well for you & Fighter!
I can totally feel you. I’m hitting my 29th week in 2 days time! I sure things will go well for you & Fighter!
I can totally feel you. I’m hitting my 29th week in 2 days time! I sure things will go well for you & Fighter!
Hi Audrey, another silent reader of yours for long time but today, I am dropping you this message. Do stay strong as I believe everything will be fine. You and fatty are a PERFECT couple and you guys are lucky to have each other and with that good luck, you will soon have a healthy, cute and perfect baby in your arms AFTER he is 34 months old in your womb 😀
Audrey; I hope your BP will go back to normal and stabilized. Then can go back home. I know fighter gonna be one tough boy. Hang on Aud!! CHEERS
Stay strong and I hope everything is well. Hugs and kisses for u and Fighter 🙂
Wishing you and Fighter the best of health with all fingers and toes crossed! Am sure both you and Fighter will pull through this :)nnKeeping you and your family in prayers. nnXxnYour silent reader
Eh not 34 months please that would make him 3 years old lololol
Stay Strong Audrey, another silent reader too, hitting 27th week today! Don’t worry, will be fine, keep your positive thinking wokay 🙂
Take care Audrey!