So Fighter was born on Monday.
Hey Jude, don’t let us down. 🙂
It’s been a very surreal past few days.
On Sunday night I just told Fatty that I didn’t think my body could do it any longer. A lot of people posted encouraging messages telling Fighter to stay in and not come out yet, but the truth is it’s not up to him.
Not about whether he wanna come out leh! It’s my stupid blood pressure.
And on Sunday I felt like things were coming to a head now. My blood pressure had become increasingly harder to control and I was suffering from worsening symptoms – the doctor had nearly maxed out my BP medication by then; but besides that the meds were wreaking havoc on my system.
Preeclampsia comes with severe swelling due to fluid retention but the BP meds make it worse too. I swelled to elephantine proportions I kid you not — the last few days I gained 1-2kg of water weight each day wtf.
My limbs were swollen, my jaw was swollen, even my eyes were so swollen I could barely open them wtf. And I couldn’t move myself! By then I was only 7 months + pregnant but I already couldn’t stand up straight. My backbone went missing wtf I thought I was just fat but it was cos there was so much water pooled around my entire torso.
So I told Fatty I don’t think I can do this much longer. I thought it would be by the next week or so.
Turns out it was the next morning wtf.
The entire Sunday night I spent unable to sleep because I couldn’t get comfortable. My stomach was too huge and heavy and even if I lay on my side, it hurt because the weight of it was pulling itself away from my body! And I was having trouble breathing (what I thought was the baby pressing on my lungs)
Dr Teresa came in early in the morning, took one look at me and said “you have to deliver today.”
My face was bright red, my pulse was racing and I was puffing although all I was doing was lying on the bed wtf. I didn’t know it but fluid had collected in my lungs by then.
Off I went to the labor room to prepare for an emergency C section.
They plugged me all full of intravenous needles and the first thing they did was transfer me magnesium sulphate. Seizures are very common in preeclampsia so the drug was to prevent me from going into fits as well as to stabilize baby’s brain since he was going to be so premature.
Then they shoved a catheter up my urinary tract. Found it damn uncomfortable like I got a permanent UTI T____T
The magnesium sulphate was so horrible!! First I started feeling hot. Then my wrist (the drip was on the back of my hand) started aching. Then it felt like someone was repeatedly taking a hammer and banging my entire forearm.
Then I threw up. Exactly like Linda Blair in the Exorcist.
The nurses slotted a vomit pan in front of me but I still managed to puke everywhere! Totally cannot control lo I managed to puke all over my hospital gown, my own (lower) legs, the bed, the nurses (FTL).
At this point I really thought death would be better wtf.
I was in sooo much pain and discomfort — the uncontrollable vomiting, what felt like a broken arm, the stupid catheter in my pee hole and the thought of giving birth later — I really wished for a lethal injection by then hahaha.
But kudos to the nurses who were so efficient! They managed to clean me up, change my gown, AND change the sheets while I was still on the bed. By then the worst of the nausea had passed and I think I half passed out at this point also.
My reaction to the drugs also slowed down a bit so while I still felt arm pain and some nausea it was quite bearable after that.
Then they rolled me into the operating theater. I was exhausted by then but still quite scared I think I was shaking.
I saw my mom hovering worriedly outside the OT and luckily Fatty was allowed in with me! 
Saw this pic he took later on — I guess they got him to change into scrubs and crocs. Ok la I can make exception this time for the crocs ahhaahha.
I remember being rolled in and how cold the OT was. I remember Dr Teresa (my obstretician) sitting studying a file calmly and I blearily thought good good she prepare to the last minute because that’s the kind of student I was — the super irritating type that reads notes until the exam starts hahahaha.
The anesthecian, Dr Chua, injected something into my spine. Actually I still dunno what the procedure was exactly but he was damn good! If I was more awake I’d be terrified at this point (cos Wendy told me epidural needle is like a satay stick), but I hardly felt anything. A blood test hurts more seriously.
In seconds my legs felt numb and I remember Dr Teresa telling me that the drug is working.
I don’t remember much after this point actually even though Fatty told me later they were asking me questions and I was responding.
I remember holding someone’s hand and at one point it was Fatty but it could also have been a random Indian lady wtf. Dunno what’s true and what’s not hahaha.
I do remember being rolled because I could feel the motion and realizing that it was already over. I forgot to ask if they gave me meds to sleep also or just anesthesia actually.
Within the hour I was back in the labor room so I think it was super quick!
The first day (immediately after surgery) I was still super out of it I didn’t realize it’s considered a major surgery! They were still monitoring my pee output with the catheter and I was only taking liquid in through a drip (I guess to check if my body was clearing water) so I was bedridden.
The anesthesia also lasted a day so I really didn’t giving birth was that bad hahaha. Second day only eat my words wtf.
I only got to see Fighter a day later! Everyone (Fatty and the grandparents) all got to see him before me because I couldn’t move and he was in the NICU in an incubator. 🙁
I got so much more to blog about but I think I’ll keep it purely about his birth and the C section this post!
Fighter is doing well considering his birth weight (1.1kg) and the prematurity! It’s a take a day at a time thing for now, but he’s doing well so far! Brain scans are ok so far (although problems can crop up any time touch wood), lungs are immature but ok enough that he’s not on the highest concentration of oxygen, and no other signs of impairment so far.
And the most encouraging news – breast milk is super crucial especially for a baby like Fighter because he didn’t get antibodies from my uterus (T__T). Some preemies cannot take breast milk but his neonatalogist tested him on 1ml of breastmilk every 4 hours and he took it! So they’ve actually been doubling his feeding everyday and he’s been responding well so far which we take for a very good sign!!!!
As for me, I’m still in the hospital because my BP still hasn’t come down yet. Yesterday only Dr Teresa told me that I was actually in a lot of danger I guess she didn’t say explicitly earlier dowan to scare me. :X She said when they opened me up there was water everywhere. Even Dr Chua said he had to ‘press’ water away from my backbone first before he could inject me. Damn scary! Luckily no more water in my lungs now, just the rest of my body. They’re not letting me out yet until I stabilize more because I can still kena a seizure any time. But it’s okay because Fighter is here too! I get to go in and see him any time I want so it’s a good trade off I guess.
Best thing of course is I get better (and skinnier and less bloated) and Fighter comes home with us la!!!!!! But I take what I can get.
P/S:
What really gets my BP up is…. breast feeding evangelists!!!!! Already so sick and dealing with so much physical and emotional suffering and I still have to read comments from idiots telling me to breast feed.
WHICH PERSON WITH NORMAL ACCESS TO INFORMATION DOESN’T KNOW THAT BREASTFEEDING IS GOOD?
You might think that you’re only doing your moral duty to let me know about the wonders of breastfeeding but let me tell you this, benefits of breastfeeding is not a breakthrough revelation. Everyone knows about it. If you think that I – despite being so connected and educated – still don’t know then you must think I’m stupid. And you’re very condescending and offensive.
2ndly, even if I’ve been hiding under a rock somewhere, I have been hospitalized for 3 weeks now, surrounded by health professionals. If I didn’t know about it earlier don’t you think I’d know it by now and that I don’t need you to superiorly remind me to breastfeed? Or do you think I don’t care enough about my baby? I fought to keep him in my uterus for 3 weeks do you not think I wouldn’t consider anything else I can do for him? I don’t know about you but I’d take breast feeding over battling preeclampsia any time.
All the comments I got – the way they’re written and the timing just makes me think that the only reason why anyone would do this is so they can feel superior about themselves. That they’re ‘doing a good deed’ and ‘being a better mom cos I’m breastfeeding my kid’. Well the only thing you’re doing is make people angry.
The info is all already out there. Some people decide not to breastfeed or are unable to for some reason; whatever you say will not change this. So please do everyone a favor and just be quiet.
Ok rant off and zen mode on. Waiting for Fatty to come so we can go see Fighter again!
Comments (107)
CONGRATS!!!! So when is the 2nd one coming! HEEHEEHEEE
Hello supermom!glad to see a new post!meaning u r doing well already!congratulations!take more rest at the mean time k!super mom also need to take good care!i am sure baby Jude will be a super baby too with all the TLC from everyone who loves him!hugs!
Audrey! So happy that both you and fighter are recovering quite nicely. May God continually bless you both. Praying for your family.
so happy to see the funny and righteous audrey tat we all know is back and kicking! 😀 while feeling your pain reading through this post, i just cant help laughing at your way of describing the suay moments lol.. nnlove the rant! ok let’s just stick to zen mode for as long as we can 😀 wat’s most important right now is both Fighter and you can go home healthily :)nnloves xxoon
That was so intense when I read about your water retention problems. But by the time I read until they use catheter I had to back off for a while wtf.nYou have really gone through a lot! I’m sure your baby and you will do fine. And I’ve not forgotten the fact that Timothy has married someone he needs to take care of a lot for the rest of his life.
oh~ congratulations Audrey and family!!!!! Hope that you and fighter can go home very very soon~ speedy recovery!!!!
wtf, i forget to write my name!!!!! :p
Hi Audrey, I’m a silent reader of yours. nCongratulations on safely giving birth! Glad to hear that everything is looking up for you, Fighter and Fatty! Wish you and Fighter a strong good recovery, stay well! nn(And stuff people who leave stupid comments..!!)nn
So happy to see u blogging!nWell there will always be ppl who thinks they are better off (due to breastfeeding in this case), but we readers, your loved ones would know the difficulty, the obstacles and pain you have to go through before you give birth to Jude and that you are a strong and loving mummy. Dont let others negative comments or advice bring you down ya! Stay strong and happy always! Look forward to future post on Fighter. ..Already imagining him cute and chubby in cute tiny little clothes 🙂
Take care!! Glad to see you are feeling better.. Gambatehh!! You’re a fighter too!! 🙂
Congratulations to you and Tim! Praying for a baby’s health 🙂
Yeah, mom is also starting to feel a lot better it seems lol
cried reading this.. u r so brave !! and i can only feel the ‘unconditional love’ a mom is showering to her child !! Prayers to you & fighter & tim & your family! gambate ne!!!
Is injection to the spine a procedure of c-section? I’m just curious >_< My cousin had c section for her baby and after that she went through pain I guess all operations are like that. Congrats that you and Fighter made through everything! Hope that he will grow well and both of you can be discharged!! 🙂 God bless ^^
Proud of you!!
YOU DID SOOO WELL!!! WELL DONE! THE MOST IMPORTANT IS THAT FIGHTER IS HERE AND WELL….Treasure the comments that moves you ….and ignore those that will likely upset you. BIG HUGSSSS …
Many congratulations to you all! Glad to see mother and baby safe 🙂 Is the nickname of ‘Fighter’ going to stick do you think?
Prayers to you and family from us in Kuching ^.^
Congratulation Audrey!nMonday? Same birthday!! xDnMum said i cant wait to go out too.. so yeap..nAnyways congratulation again~
Congratulations! Keep it up!
….good god. who would even *think* about talking to you about breastfeeding after reading all your tweets/instagrams/blog posts??!!??! damn retarded.nnangry on your behalf so please don’t be angry. XDDDnnrest well!! (:
Congratulation and take care! 🙂
I’m so, so glad to read that you’re feeling much better! Like many of your readers, I’ve been praying for your family. Don’t worry about the breastfeeding for now, just focus on getting back on your feet. As much as it’s good for the baby, what’s best for Fighter right now is a mummy who’s strong and healthy! Just try as and when you’re feeling up to it!
I’ve read your blog for some time now and I just wanted you to know that I was born very premature due to eclampsia and I’m totally fine. Sure there were some years where my parents struggled: oxygen for a year (meaning I have very bad sight), incubator for some time and being fed with a tube/catheter through my nose until I was 3 years old. nI’m 23 now and don’t have any symptoms at all and my situation was worse than Fighters so keep calm and take one day at a time. From what I’ve read he s going to make it. nBesides, about the breastfeeding, don’t worry if they still give him your milk it’s the same. The only thing that differs is the fact that he isn’t close to you. But that will eventually happen as I went through it.nWish you the best to all three of you 🙂
Sorry to hear that! How many weeks were you? Glad to hear everything is ok now 🙂
Wtf I forgot to wish u CONGRATULATIONS!!!nWelcome to mummyhood!!!nnEvery parents I know think that they shd or must comment and give lebih2 advice on parenting WITHOUT us even asking. I dunno why.nnDon’t bother. Just focus and recovering and ur baby.nn:D nnwww.queenzbeez.blogspot.com
Wow.. Sounds like u r a fighter baby also! Oxygen for 1yr, nasal feeding until 3yo.. Wow.nnWell done u! And kudos to ur parents also!nIf u don’t mind, how bad is ur sight? Only if u don’t mind answering. :)nnwww.queenzbeez.blogspot.comn
Hi Audrey! I came across your blog just now while researching for my wedding. Your blog is hilarious.nnCongratulations on the birth of your beautiful baby, and I wish you and your family good health and good luck! *hugs*
Congratulations on your bundle of joy! I hope that you’ll have a speedy recovery and may God bless your family.
Congratz Audrey! I have been reading your blog often, may u and ur body recover fast!
Congratz Audrey! I have been reading your blog often, may u and ur baby recover fast!
ohgod! i’m so happy for you! congratz Audrey! recover soon and God bless! =D
congratulation audrey n hello fighter! you are a brave mother, upkeep your spirit n take good care of yourself while taking care of fighter. I know Bf mother could be obsessive sometime but pls forgive them for their enthusiastic but i m sure they meant well. i always admire your optimistic n am sure everything will turn fine. all the best to you new mother, counting the days you’ll truly enjoy the joy of being a mother.
You’re damn amazing I dunno how you tahaned it all but you did and it might sound pretentious but I’m so proud of you!!!! Hope you have a speedy recovery and fighter will become strong and healthy!!!
everyday i see patients with the same situation like you, eventually most of them and their babies do well. you have the professionals with u so Keep calm and breastfeed. =)
Welcome Jude!nAnd well done Aud and Tim!nSuper-dramatic your delivery, but so glad you and Jude both came through oknSending good vibes and happy thoughts your way
congrats audrey!!! stronggg mama !! so so so happy for you ! im so touched lol lol anyhow, welcome fighter !
congrats audrey!!! stronggg mama !! so so so happy for you ! im so touched lol lol anyhow, welcome fighter !
congrats audrey!!! stronggg mama !! so so so happy for you ! im so touched lol lol anyhow, welcome fighter !
I threw up during labor too. It was in my hair, and on my face. Then my husband took a picture and sent it out. Oh and my baby also had servere juandice. Caucasian husband thought “Perfectly healthy baby. Asian baby- he’s suppose to be yellow”. After UV treatments, breastmilk (just giving props where it’s due), and 2 months, it completely cleared. Supposedly my oxytocin medications increased the risk of jaundice. nGood job on protecting and nurturing Fighter this far Aud (you are a fighter too). I can’t wait to read more Fighter posts and hear about the funny things he will do.
There’s a saying that only ruler of country or emperor born in the 7 month. I bet fighter will be a very very smart kid!
Hi, actually 31 weeks is a good number. Mind are only 24 weeks. We have a support group. Just drop by if you need any help :)nnhttp://singaporemotherhood.com/forum/threads/premature-babies-support-group.3090/
yay! U r very strong mum. go go! Congrates!
Congrats Audrey and Tim!!
Hey audrey! congrats on delivering JM!!!! Hope for the best for your baby :)) another blogger iiwentan, also wrote that she was a 7 month premature baby along with her brother but they grew up fine! That was also back in the days when medical care was not as advanced! So im sure fighter will be fine ;D
Hey audrey! congrats on delivering JM!!!! Hope for the best for your baby :)) another blogger iiwentan, also wrote that she was a 7 month premature baby along with her brother but they grew up fine! That was also back in the days when medical care was not as advanced! So im sure fighter will be fine ;D
Hey audrey! congrats on delivering JM!!!! Hope for the best for your baby :)) another blogger iiwentan, also wrote that she was a 7 month premature baby along with her brother but they grew up fine! That was also back in the days when medical care was not as advanced! So im sure fighter will be fine ;D
Jiayou!! So glad things worked out fine and both mother and child are safe
Audrey, you are completely amazing. So strong, humorous even in the worst situation. Thank you so much for being so detailed and willing to tell your blog readers everything. I’m really thankful both you and Fighter are doing ok and that Fatty is doing well too. YOU CAN DO IT! I can’t wait til you both leave the hospital and you write about daily life as a new mum
Audrey and fighter JIA you!! You both can overcome this trying period.