Hello everyone!

Last night I had seven hours of sleep (albeit broken up into three pieces) so I’m feeling gooooood.

So I have been a mommy of two for… *counts* fourteen days now.

*gasp* What, I am two weeks old now? I sure wasn’t born yesterday wtf.

It’s still so weird to think I’m a mother of two!  People with “mother of two” titles are usually aunties (like uhhh my mom is a mother of two as well hahahaha) but maybe I’m in denial of my true auntie status. FML.

But I guess that I am, that I am.  I have a toddler (19 months old as of Penny’s birth) and a newborn. *clutches at own face

Obviously ever since coming home from the hospital things have been hectic and the days and nights are all melding together but honestly it could have been worse.  My confinement lady is here and she takes care of Penelope a lot, plus our nanny helps with Fighter (especially cos I’m now a full time cow) so I have a lot of support la!

I thought I’d be going to hell in a handbasket with two kids but so far so good.  Although ask me again in a few weeks when the confinement auntie departs you might hear me answer from below ground wtf.

Anyway here’s what’s been happening lately…

My recovery

I did a C section for both babies but surprisingly the recovery this time has been a lot quicker and smoother!  Even my doctor was surprised cos I’m two years older than I was before plus this is the second incision yo.

But she said I was very ill the last time which could have made me feel weaker and more in pain overall.  Also uhh this time I dutifully took my painkillers; last time I stopped them very early on cos I thought they didn’t make a difference.  Turns out they do wtf.

Last time it took me a week before I could walk upright (not even 180 degrees upright ok, maybe like 160 degrees) with minimal pain but this time, on the second day I was walking very slowly upright already!

My right side still hurts a bit though when I get out of bed in the morning but the doctor examined me yesterday and she said no infection or swelling so it’s probably a muscle pulling or something.

Fighter’s reaction

His first first reaction when he saw Penny for the first time ever was in hospital.  He went, “AYEEE!!!” and instantly tried to reach for her.

Unfortunately, toddlers don’t know their own strength.  He clawed at her face happily and uhh we adults may have panicked and raised our voices in fear a bit.  Then since then he’s been reluctant to touch her even if we gently hold his hand and guide him to pat her. 🙁

He was always pretty happy to see her in the hospital but when we brought her home and carried her, it finally occurred to him that THIS IS COMPETITION YO.

A few times whenever one of us carried Penny, Fighter would either whine or try to get someone else to carry him.  Lol damn kiasu cannot lose like that.

Once I was breastfeeding Penny in my room and Fighter woke up and cried for someone in his room.  So I got him to come in to my room, while I fed Penny.  I kept talking to him and paying him attention while I held her, and lo and behold he wasn’t unhappy!  He was smiling like crazy actually – I think he was just worried he’d lose the attention to her so he was probably relieved that even though mommy is carrying Penny, she’s still paying attention to him.

Nowadays if I feed her and he’s around, he just comes over and puts his hand on my shoulder or back, but doesn’t show any unhappiness. ^^

But most of the time when she’s sleeping in her basket or rocker he just ignores her wtf.

However!  When she vacates her rocker (which was Fighter’s rocker as a baby, but which I don’t think he even remembers sitting in)….

Fighter attacks!

Damn annoying seriously hahahaha.  Like I said I really don’t think he remembers this as his rocker but he just wants to try whatever she’s having.

He also tried to drink from her milk bottle once LOL.

Chilling in Penny’s rocker and watching TV hahahaha nonsense this boy.

Doing things for the second time

You’d think it’d be easier the second time round but not true! It’s like I forgot everything that I learned in taking care of a newborn and had to relearn everything again.  Having one kid doesn’t really prepare you for the next I think.

Penny’s style is quite dissimilar to Fighter’s.  Fighter initially didn’t know how to suckle (cos he was born so premature) but one day he just searched my chest with his mouth, caught on, and from then on breastfeeding was a breeze.

Whereas for Penny I nursed her from day 0 and for the first week or so, she didn’t latch well at all!  I dreaded every nursing session cos it’d be me against her struggling to get her to open her mouth wide enough, to suckle correctly instead of just sucking on the tip, trying to wake her up when she falls asleep two seconds later wtf.  We’d take sometimes up to an hour and I’d feel defeated and exhausted at the end cos she didn’t seem to have drank anything.  T_T  Then the nurses or the confinement lady would have to cup feed her to make sure she was full.

Plus I’d totally forgotten how it is to breastfeed. O_o I had to relearn holding techniques, what a proper latch feels like (not nipples on fire wtf), how to burp (still suck at it) and everything!  The only thing that came back to me like second nature was pumping wtf. -_-

Anyway, I think she’s stronger this week or something cos she’s latching much better!  Her latch is a lot stronger plus she drinks consistently for longer.  So I’m a lot happier and more relaxed too. 😀

I was worried that I wouldn’t have enough milk this time but I guess I have nothing to worry about wtf.  Right now I only pump for 10-12 minutes every 4-6 hours cos I don’t want oversupply issues if Penny isn’t drinking a lot.  But I still yield 200+ ml each time wtf so okay milk spa yo.

MOMMY OF TWO OMG

Ok that’s all!  Going back to pumping wtf.