This #confessionsofamom tag has been going around on Dayre. I’m quite motivated to jump on the bandwagon and write a blog post on this too! But right now there is only one confession Imma make.
I hate what pregnancy has done to my body. T_________T
The misshapen boobs, the extra soft tummy, nipples the size of plates wtf, the stretched out thighs. Extra cellulite on new areas. I now fail the boob pencil test spectacularly. My lower back actually jiggles when I jump wtf.
(On the bright side, I’ve made my peace with my stretch marks. You guys can stay.)
During my first pregnancy, I was terrified about not getting back to pre-pregnancy weight too. Luckily I did go back to pre-pregnancy weight — in fact I actually went lower. Before getting pregnant with Penny, I was 3 kg less than before Fighter. O_o I attribute it to breastfeeding.
This picture was taken 6.5 weeks after I had Fighter. I was 40 kg here (my pre-preggers weight was 38 kg). I was pretty astounded myself at how fast I lost it.
This time, 4 weeks after having Penny, I am struggling a little wtf.
Yes I realize 4 weeks is an impossible timeline to expect my body to go back to normal. I am 42 kg now, and my pre-Penny weight was actually 35 kg. Which makes me 7 kg off.
But because the first time I lost the weight so fast, I was quite confident the same would happen this time. But I’ve been stuck at 42 kg for a few weeks already so I started panicking.
That said, there’s a few things different this time which I guess makes the revertal to pre-preggers body a little tougher.
1. I’m older
It’s a bitter pill to swallow but here goes wtf. I don’t know if this is an actual contributing factor but it makes sense la. I am two years older now than when I had Fighter so it can be said that my metabolism may have decreased which could be why it’s taking longer for that weight to shift.
2. Penny was born later
Fighter was born at 31 weeks, right at the start of the third trimester. Penny was born at 36 weeks plus, making her on the border of being full term. She didn’t need to be admitted into the NICU even!
Most women pack on the most pounds during the third trimester. With Fighter he arrived too early for me to have much time to really gain weight. With Penny this obviously wasn’t the case so whatever I gained, was real weight, not just water.
3. I ate a lot more ice cream
Confirm Penny got sweet tooth lor. My cravings with Fighter were actually pretty healthy – I ate tons of vegetables and clear Chinese style soup. Not with Penny wtf. I kept wanting to eat sweet stuff!
I’m convinced I only started baking so I could make myself desserts wtf.
To make matters worse, my heartburn was intense my whole pregnancy. With Fighter, fresh milk helped but it failed with Penny. Even Gaviscon didn’t work. The only thing that did was ice cream. -_-
So I uhh ate some every day. I tried to minimize the damage by buying mini Cornettos that came in a box but sedikit sedikit lama-lama menjadi bukit okay so the fat piled on. T______T
4. I exercised less
Since I’m on a confession kick right now sigh. During Fighter’s pregnancy I diligently attended pregnacy yoga and pilates and went swimming every week.
With Penny, I was so busy I totally forgot about exercise. I just hoped running around after a toddler and lifting weights (Fighter) would be enough. And when I remembered, I randomly did some Kegels. :X
Exercise makes a huge difference leh. By the last few weeks with Penny even climbing stairs made me pant cos I had no stamina at all. I’m sure it’s why I’m not bouncing back as quickly post-pregnancy too.
Anyway.
42 kg is probably very light to most people but keep in mind my height and my pre-preggers weight. My arms and face (and maybe lower legs) are relatively slim but everything in between is all blobby and misshapen and weird.
Here’s photo evidence. Oh god what am I doing wtf.
Me from the side.
Lies! I’m sucking in my stomach wtf.
This is the real thing. T_________T
Pants from before totally cannot fit. That’s like five inches difference!? Cannot even zip up, don’t say button. T______T
Skin on my abdomen is damn flabby and pinch a bit also a lot come out.
Erm don’t remember what my thigh circumference used to be but it’s now a whopping 18 inches! Confirm much bigger than before cos some of my long pants cannot even pull up FML.
Er help?
I know these are badges of honor from housing and growing two babies in two years inside my body. And some of them – like my stretch marks – I do wear with pride. But I think I can also honor myself by getting back to how I used to look or better lol.
Last time I asked Fatty, “how ah what if I don’t get back to my old body?”
He said, “can always go Marie France” Hahahaha.
Yes I will go there!! Hahaha. I was already in touch with Marie France Bodyline last year but then I discovered I was pregnant so we didn’t go on from there.
But now I am going back to them for a consultation and see what they can do for me! If it works, I’m damn excited to do a before and after post hahaha.
(Yes I know disapproving people will say you can just exercise and diet but exercise alone sometimes cannot just target certain areas. I will of course exercise and eat healthily but I don’t want to rule out any other avenues I have.)
Stay tuned yo wtf.
Comments (11)
yerrrrrrr… make me scared of pregnancy leh~!! but good to know… all the best for you~~
dont go slimming center! from my exp. it was terribly painful and i went through sauna (i forgot what’s the treatment called already), i almost faint. i think myb the treatment was too much for my body to take. i dont know. the first massage session i had with the machine i almost die of pain. during massage i kept telling myself “beauty is pain beauty is pain” lol. i didn’t want to come for the next treatment but when i thought of RM3.5k my husband already spent for signing up i forced myself to go. i didn’t finish the 2 last sessions cos i was so tired of it and one of the reason also every time i go for treatment they always promote this and that la. and I ended up buying additional package + detox drink bla bla. u know it’s like u have to keep spending more to add more sessions and 12 sessions (i think 1 month) are not enough to lose weight. can lose inch but not weight. u have to dump in more money. i think i’ve spent at least 5k. tbh, i think it’s such a waste. better go gym or run or go dancing studio more worth. but u can still try if u want. i’ve been warned but i wanted to slim down fast.. slimming center was the only option i could think out of desperation that time. heheh
I am only turning 22 y/o, i am also four feet nine but I am 44kg! :'( Maybe you should start eating clean and exercise more. That might be able to help. I’m doing so now because I wouldn’t want to be called as teapot at the age of 22 T.T
My momma had 3 kids, my youngest bro at 44. I have never seen her slim all my life then one day she just decided to loose weight and now she’s slimmer and hotter than me wtf… The other day someone came and asked her whether I was her sister in law…!
I have 2 kids too around the same age as yours! I went through all the similar emotions and experiences you went through. Am trying to slim down but it’s progressing super slowly also. The one day I decided to go facial after 1 year, few months after childbirth and my baby gave me a poop bomb like to stall me and made me late for my appointment.
The last time i went because a slimming centre had come up with a promotion tied to a blogger it was a horrible experience. I just wanted to know what’s up so I really didn’t wanna be paying any bucks unless OH MY IT WORKS SO WELL. But i was forced so much into buying a package that is so expensive. I know this part won’t apply to you because the centre would be all but pushy to you since you’re a blogger but I don’t know if you like someone pointing out your body is terrible (imho, they just have terrible lighting and make you look at yourself at terrible angle. literally i mean with the mirrors angled frm the bottom and what not)
Basically I had just completed my A Level and was becoming a glutton of some sort. Started trying out alcohol and clubbing too and stopped having to do physical education. So obviously i gained some weight. But I don’t think I’m that terribly chubby :/ But at the centre, by a woman with no unknown certification (well ofc i don’t know if she has any) I started being measured and poked and showed that I have stubborn fats at my thighs. After that it was just battle of wits, me insisting on taking the trial and her insisting i should pay now cz i will later regret (first trial price is so much cheaper than normal price). Then I did the electro something treatment. Obviously i felt nothing and no weight loss or water retention loss whatsoever.
Now my friends at the place i worked during break said i’m so buff lol and i think i lost a lot of fat (not much on weight) because I dance regularly and tried myself the wayofgray. I think it was a lot more enjoyable and kinder on my self esteem.
i think part of the reason why you can’t shed off the weight is also because you’re fighter lifting. Your arm is probably building real crazy muscle (I had a colleague who had 3 kids of similar age, her arms are crazy strong. She doesn’t ‘exercise’) so tt might add onto the weight because muscle is denser ryt. Also maybe you’re under more stress cz now there’s two kids la.
Anyway, long story cut short is hope you don’t take it hard to yourself and don’t get stressed out when they point body ‘flaws’ 🙂 I personally think that nothing can cause a target weight loss because it’s all genetic? Like how some people have asymetrical abs while others have pretty abs. But of course if they help you do so that’s great! I hope the slimming session works for you and if not, you’re still awesome ^^
LOLOL your facial incident! Wah how did your mom become so slim! D: And yay to having small kids!
OMG so sorry to hear about your experience 🙁 but it’s good to lose inches not weight right? Cos weight we could be losing muscle instead of fat (which is what I’ve heard) but inches means we’re definitely slimmer?
oh no so sorry to hear about your experience D: it sounds like you had a terrible consultant la why she so rude and mean :(((
LOLOL TEAPOT SORRY AHAHHA
Eh don’t let it put you off pregnancy hahahaha I’m positive we can regain our bodies after having babies
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