So the other day I was pumping and reflecting.

You know you read articles and Facebook posts written by new mommas on their birth stories or seeing their babies for the first time.  And they always go something like this:

“…it was love at first sight for me.”

So was it really just me!? Confession time… it wasn’t love at first sight the first time I saw Penny or Fighter.  I never understood that saying.

I only realized this one day when I was playing with Penny and she was cooing and smiling back at me.  I thought how much I loved her and how I would do anything for her and her brother, and it hit me that truth be told, I did not feel like this on the day she was born.

The first time I saw Fighter I burst into tears because he was all tubed up in his incubator.  I cried because I felt responsible for putting him in that situation.  And I cared very much about him and I WANTED him of course.  But I didn’t feel the fall in love hearts in eyes feeling wtf.

With Penny, the nurses placed her in my arms and to be honest I don’t remember what I thought.  Probably something along the lines of “wah she so sticky” LOLOL.

Then later on when she was all cleaned up and we met again in my room, I again didn’t feel anything.  Meeting both my babies was like meeting someone new.  It was so weird!  I wanted them so badly when they were in my tummy but when I actually met them, it hit home that this was a new person, a stranger to me still.  Could I say I loved a stranger?

The love came more and more every day though.  Every day I saw them, fed them, bathed them, played with them and that’s when I started falling in love.  The more I get to know them, their weird baby habits and distinctive personalities, the more I love them.

And I think every day I still love them more and more.  In the beginning I may have loved them as an obligation  but now I love so deeply it slightly scares me because I can’t think of anything I wouldn’t do for them.

Was it really love at first sight for you?

Anyway random pumping thoughts aside!

Let me introduce to you Hula Penny.

HAHAHAHAHA SEXY OR NOT?

Love, Bubsie sent me a whole bunch of costumes and outfits for Penny and this is the most hilarious one hahahaha.  Grass skirt, coconuts and flowers in her hair hahahahahaha I cannot handle the cuteness!

And where’s Fighter?

Here he is!

To match his sister (and as part of my twinning obsession), Fighter is a tiny surfer dude today.  He’s decked out in green board shorts…

And sunglasses!

Hehehe one of the outtakes.

“Hmm Penny, Mommy didn’t get you any sunglasses.”

“You can have mine.”

“That’s not how you wear sunglasses, sis.”

“Is this edible?”