You pretend you don’t know us or don’t see us when really you do. In Japan, you never said hi unless we called out to you first. And when you thought we weren’t looking, you whispered to your friends and laughed at us.
You would force a smile whenever we yelled out your name. Or sometimes the smile wouldn’t even appear at all, and you would just turn away, pretending you didn’t hear.
I treated you as one of my best friends but when you felt like it you would say cutting things to me, or you would ignore me. You said I always made you feel bad about yourself. All this because I am 37 kg and 4 feet 9 and you aren’t?
Do you honestly think I like being this small? Do you think I made myself like this, just so I could make you feel shitty about your own size? You are not even that big; there are a lot of other girls who weigh more than you or are taller but have lots more confidence, but you are just too preoccupied with yourself to notice that.
Sometimes I feel sad about what happened to us, because I really loved being friends and hanging out with you. But given a choice, I wouldn’t do anything to change the situation now because I can do without someone like you in my life.
Every time you get into one of your moods and take it out on me, I am the one who approaches you to talk about it later.
Every time we see each other, I am always the one who says hi first.
Every time it’s your birthday I get you a gift. And even when it’s not and I see something that reminds me of you, I get it for you.
I am not being materialistic but this just goes to show how much I matter to you. You have only given me ONE birthday present in the 4 years we’ve known each other. And the present was a skirt that you’d bought for yourself but couldn’t fit in.
When there are other friends around (maybe friends who don’t make you feel bad about yourself?) you would never call me. But if noone else is around and I am, you are the sweetest person ever.
Clearly it’s frustrating for you to have me as a friend. And because of how you handle and react to it, it’s the same for me. But what the fuck do you expect me to do? Shave my head? Gain 10 kg? So why bother trying to stay friends?
I know I have my flaws. But I also know that whatever I might have done to hurt you was never intentional. And I just can’t say the same for you.
We both know what happened in Japan. So stop telling people that I never talked to you there, because we both know exactly how it went down.
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Now that’s off my chest, let’s talk about my job and an episode with this irksome girl (not the one mentioned above wtf)
She’s a sophomore who’s small and Vietnamese with bleached blond hair. She has a twin sister who has black hair.
Since she came in to Moho last year when Angie and I weren’t here, she must have thought that she and her sister are the cutest things around because they would walk around together all the time decked in pink (like me and Angie in our first 2 years wtf).
Mild even said she thought of them as our replacements since we were in Japan.
But then this year we came back right, and I dunno what she’s thinking – whether she views us as a threat to her popularity or what WTF – but every time she sees me or Angie (or Suet!) around she gives us a stare like scrutinising us from head to toe damn rude okay I feel like punching her smug face arghhhhhhhhh.
The worst part is, I’ve actually been introduced to her but she still doesn’t say hi and just keeps staring cock at me!!!
At first I wanted to say hi because I thought she was quite cute and no harm making friends what right. But she’s so obnoxious!
I met a friend of hers called Dale (who looks like Rachel McAdams damn pretty!) who said that she and her friends (stupid idiot twins) saw me and Angela and thought we were Japanese so she introduced me to her.
So say hi la stupid! Your brain and your mouth got no connecting nerves ar wtf. Damn rude ok only know how to stare cock with a lansi face and undress people with your eyes wtf wtf.
Anway the other day I was doing trash in Macgregor, which is the dorm she lives in. I was wearing my trash outfit which is a grey hoodie with shitbrown pants and uggs damn ugly ok oh ya with bright green surgical gloves too.
So I took the bag of trash out of the bin and I was putting the new bag in when she walked in with her twin sister. I didn’t look up to see who was that cos I was busy concentrating on my job la wtf.
Then she fucking rude ok! I was still putting in the bin liner and I hadn’t fastened it properly on the edges of the bin yet and she was carrying a tray and she just tipped all the contents into the dustbin without saying anything.
No sorry no excuse me nothing!
And because I hadn’t fixed the bag properly yet I had to catch it quick before the whole thing fell inside the dustbin and when I looked up she was already walking out the door.
NIAMACIBAI DAMN ANGRY ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
First of all cos she’s so damn rude! How can you not even say excuse me when you’re doing something that cause other people so much trouble?! And she even left her tray on the counter. Leave for me to dispose for you ar? Am I your maid ROARRRRRRR
Second of all, how can I let her see me in such a degrading position!!! I lost all my face just like that!! Now she probably thinks she’s better than me just cos I am a trash collector T______________T
Whatever la ok I would still be cuter than you even if you were in your prom dress and I was wearing one of my own garbage bags wtf T____________T
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Random people I miss because I haven’t been talking to them much 🙁 ((( :
Brother Ooi telling me unfunny jokes then getting dejected when I don’t laugh wtf.
Tze clutching my hand and saying “my love!” and “Team Win – Because We Never Lose” wtf.
Jammie for never failing to take my side and beating up Latat for me HAHAHAHAH
Christine running in zigzags across the road/lying down on the train just to save us seats HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA T______T
Hui Wen for skanking it up and then hogging the boxes WTF (no podium wtf) at Seven and shooting dirty looks at other girls who even think of getting up there with us wtf.
Sze Jiann for not giving up on me even when I drive wtf and being almost my siamese twin this summer.
And most of all, I miss…..
my extensions! God do I ever. I look at old pictures and want to weep T_______T
My hair’s Zaman Kegemilangan is over T_______T
Comments (26)
yea to that old friend of ours, you, youself, also really have to admit that me and Audrey both tried to maintain this friendship. We were always the ones who said hi to you first, and the one who wanted to make the effort to solve problems in our friendship. You have to admit that you NEVER tried. If there really is something that we did wrong and hurt you, you are more than welcome to come and talk to us about it. If we really did something wrong, we will be willing to change. But you just ignore us or pretend that you don’t see us like ME AND AUDREY were never your friends. You always say that you hate us because we are skinnier and smaller. You complained to us that how come we are always surrounded by guys. Honestly, guys would be happy to talk to you too, its you youself who doesn’t dare to open up and cause them to avoid appoarching you. If this is really about your self-esteem, then not being friends will be the best for all of us. If you really don’t want to admit this, then continue to feel sorry for youself and blame others for it.
hehehe.. just get new hair extensions:D hehehe.. aiyah.. trust me aud.. your hair zaman kegemilangan not over.. hardly over.. hahahah.. my hair doesn’t even know what a zaman kegemilangan is cuz i’m too lazy. hehehhehe
sheeshh.. don’t u have rights as a senior to thrash the sophomores ^^
hahaahaha why so sohai wan i know who you’re talking about! that’s why i say it’s always good to be like me, choose your friends and only make friends your own level wtf.
Aiyo, why get angry because of some makachibai like her. BURN IN HELL!!!! Why you gals wan or willing to change for someone like that ah? Ask her to fly kite la!
Cis, now i feel so bitchy.
@_@ I’m confused. Are you angry with Michael Jackson or a girl who is your friend who looks like Michael Jackson… sorry ar a bit blur blur..
But then again, its always like that.. there are always bitches around…
Btw, I like your hair in the last picture. It looks really nice!! 🙂
gimme your hair in the last pic please thank u.
HAHA! you look hot in the last picture! 😉
Shuyi: Hahahah Action Michael Jackson is just the blog title cause ‘action’ and ‘jackson’ rhymmes. Aud’s not angry at Michael Jackson wtf
You have only given me ONE birthday present in the 4 years we’ve known each other. And the present was a skirt that you’d bought for yourself but couldn’t fit in.
WTF
I think I know who you’re talking about! And the Viet girl damn annoying also. Throw her into the trash compactor wtf. Throw her into the incinerator wtf.
And there there babe you have your real friends /boo I miss and love you so much /boo
ya that last pic is one of your best pics (and that thailand one is your best /boo) remember i put that in your resume for some promoter job wtf
it’s ok darling we will have our zaman kegemilangan for our boobs very soon wtf
shit wei your hair in the last pic is uber nice. oh i mean your hair now is also nice wat 🙂 orrrrrr go get extensions again la 🙂
wah.. the last pic’s very cute.. and gorgeous hair. why i never noticed u were my neighbour all this years is beyond me.. 🙂
Awww, dear, I MISS YOU! *emo emo kao kao wtf* T______T
And no la, your hair’s zaman kegemilangan is not over! Our zaman kegelapan during teen years is over, things can only go up now WTF.
Haha I have no clue who u’re talking about but with tat kind of attitude just forget bout her. but for the viets y dun u put the trays back in front of their doors HAHA tat will teach them. Nice hair in the last pic u really look like a JAP haha really. =)
Angie: yea as we know now, she has deleted us off her facebook =.=
c.ho: no we don’t! haha if we did i think it would be against the law 😛
tze: ya there’s a good reason why all my close friends are pretty WTF.
bob: are u a guy or girl why so bitchy wan u hahahaha. but it’s not so much whether she’s a bad person or not…it’s just the unsuitability on both sides of being friends i guess
shuyi: she’s not a bitch in the way that you think…she just has her own issues that i can’t handle anymore >.< adz: only if u give me your wardrobe! jane: thank u! jia meei: i miss you too! are u happy with the picture i put up wtf. sweat: what? what are u talking about? *feigns ignorance wtf. cynthiathia: haha i would if i could! but it costs rm2000 to put on extensions in msia WTFWTF. i checked at A Cut Above. sarur: cos i don't like to go out of the house wtf. hui wen: OH YA HAHAHA and our zaman kegelapan wasn't even too far back in the past either -________- one-dollar: yea that's what im going to do:) haha in just this picture or other times also? wtf.
yea whatever la shez never strong enough to face her problems. even tho i really want to talk to her abt it , i cant find the point anymore.
Since you asked no not really of all pictures to choose wtf I love you still
now i know where’s the SGD$1 hair extension salon is! hahahaha. that viet girl is damn annoying la, i think i will kill her with my stares if i were you. expert at acting fierce hahahaha.
i can’t stand vietnamese chicks as well because all they do is just go after people’s boyfriends & act slutty like hell. speaking from experiences pfft.
yea you look very much like a jap,very pwetty & cute =)
I’m 4 ft 9″ but wayyyyy off from 37kg omg..Even if I lose 10kg I wouldn’t be yr weight T____T. That’s it…diet from now on!
who who who who who?!
Gossips must share one leh. Even with boycotted mainstream bloggers. :/
Post the password in the club comm or I will cry
hey! whats the password? =) please?
oppss..private post oo..so sad…
hi, i think i’ve got an almost similar situation like u n ur friend b4. i got so much thoughts n feeling after reading ur blog. ya some friends really won’t know to appreciate u although u treat them how nicely. those friends actually are not worthy to b friend with or even hv friend. they dont know the meaning of F.R.I.E.N.D. poor them! u lost the so-called friend but u stil got lotsa gud friends.. =) i always envy u for having a nice.est soulmate n best friends around u. anyway, nice to meet u. i think u r amiable cuz ur face shows me =)
hey! may i noe where is the 1 dollar hair extension located at? bugis?thx!
ron: muahaha i am so going there whenever i get back to msia!
jiameei: posted!
ling: haha i don’t think ALL viet girls are like that…maybe we were just unlucky
mel: but im super skinny and have no muscles at all don’t diet la 37 isnt ideal la
kennysia: damn pat! told u already la ok!
crash: sorry password unavailable:)
kimfei: haha er cheer up wtf
halle: aww thank u! yea we shouldn’t revolve our lives around this sort of people. good luck with ur situation im sure u have a lot of caring frds as well:)