AudVanity

Mental vomit

Ok here comes the vomit.  No crafting my sentences so they’re all all beautiful.  Not going to care about paragraphing or grammar even.  And everything’s probably gonna be all jumbled up.

I’m sorry that all I am these days is emo wtf.  But honestly all I feel like these days is not blogging.  It’s changed so much from when I first started blogging 5 years ago.

Actually I’ve changed.  I looked back at my entries when I was 19 and holy shit was I pretentious wtf.  Perfect English and no wtfs.  I just wanted to sound clever.  And then I progressed to sounding a little bit more Malaysian (and natural) and I think my best entries were from age 20-23.  Nothing to stop me from writing what I wanted to write — if I wanted to complain about my promiscuous neighbor, I complained.  If I stole a mail cart from the post office, I wrote about it.  If I wanted to say I think I look freaking cute today I say I look damn cute today.  I don’t know if I was writing well but I liked what I was saying and my blog represented a lot of me.

Now everything I say comes with a backlash.  If I jokingly say I’m cute, someone will say fuck no you’re old.  If I wanted to write something about work, I better look for a job elsewhere wtf.  If I’m sad, someone will happily tell me that it’s karma because I’m a homewrecking bitch.

Maybe some of it is because of Tim.  Everything I do or every success I achieve is going to be because I am in a relationship with him.  If my traffic goes up, it’s because I’m milking our relationship.  If it goes down, I deserve it.  I’ll always be known as Tim’s girlfriend (unless we break up wouldn’t you like that wtf).  Even Project Alpha — god I can’t wait to see how many insults and hurtful words people are going to come up with.  Midget, ugly, old, money grabbing whore wtf (ok sorry that was actually a description of Hee Yit Foong I read on Wikipedia wtf)

I don’t know what to do or what I want.  Ok I want to be able to blog as freely as I did before.   I don’t want to care what people say.  Sometimes I dread looking at my comments in case I find some shitty remark inside.  Or maybe it’s because I’m in a different phase of my life right now.  And I have my first real job.When it comes to work, ok that’s something that I have to deal with because it’s just not professional to talk about work on a public space.

But… I blog because I want to be heard.  And yet I don’t want people to know the person I am.  Or I do want them to know me but I’m scared.  I’m not making sense huh.  I really don’t take insults well.  Maybe I’m a people pleaser and I want everyone to like me.  Or at least not hate me wtf.  If you call me a midget or ugly or whatever it doesn’t bother me because it’s true that I’m a midget, so?  And it’s not true that I’m ugly wtf so how should that bother me?  But I do get very upset that people actually take the time and effort to come in here and write comments full of hate and trying to hurt me.  I guess it would make you happy to know that your efforts are well rewarded.

I’m not writing well anymore.  All I’m doing now is writing about events and putting up pictures.  That’s not me.  That’s maybe 10% of my life and 1% of my thoughts.  If I’m scared I wanna be able to say I’m scared.  If I put up a picture, I want to do it without wondering if someone will come and call me stupid ugly midget wtf.  But I don’t know how to get back to me again.  I wasn’t insightful or smart but I liked what I wrote.  Now I can’t even bear to re-read my posts wtf.

Suet says she loves where she’s at now because she’s connecting with all her readers and she feels good about that.  But although everyone leaves such sweet and warm comments for me, there’s no connection because what’s in my blog is nothing and I think you can see that.  Most of my thoughts and feelings aren’t included and I am very frustrated that I don’t know how to put them in.

Stop blogging? But I like writing.  Write protected posts?  If I wanted that I would write in a real journal.  Switch blogs?  Yes.  I would if I could.  Switch to an anonymous blog where I can be as nasal and blatant as I want.  But shamefully, I need the ad money that comes with fourfeetnine; without it I would be up to here in shit with my tuition loan.

Maybe someday if I were rich. I would throw away fourfeetnine and just be Aud somewhere else.

Caution: Probably the most honest I’ve ever been on my blog.  But also please take with pinch of salt because I am just writing down everything in my head and am aware not much of it is sense.

Comments (109)

  • Hey I really really really like you. And I’ve never even met you. But I can feel that you’re a genuinely nice person with an absolutely adorable personality and I’ve met a couple of your friends, and they’re great people too but you’re pretty incredible and this personality shines through in the little pictures that you posted and the short words that you wrote. like really, that’s pretty great I think.

    this is the first time I’ve commented in someone’s blog in a long time and the first in yours. so well ya… I hope you feel okay soon. I just feel compelled to lend you support this time round because you sound really down. take a hug from a stranger. 😀

  • elephant: wah wafu you so smart! hehe ur right.. i never thought abt it that way…what i gained throughout the journey:)

    j:
    haha i don’t think u got what i was trying to say. i never thought about being famous actually but when more ppl started reading my blog i was happy cos i thought i was connecting with more ppl. so when i got haters i was upset cos i didn’t understand why.
    and i think ur wrong about the choice we all have to make. if ur famous and have haters, it doesn’t mean u don’t have true friends & family. and if ur a nobody, tht doesn’t mean u have true friends either.
    my problem wasn’t directly because of the haters although indirectly it was — i felt that i wasn’t being true to myself in my blog although the haters played a part in my hiding stuff.
    and i’m not blogging for money – if i didn’t earn money i would still be blogging. but right now that i am i can’t give it up because without it i can’t support my college loan, but maybe in a few yrs when i’ve had more work experience, i won’t need to rely on blogging income anymore 🙂

    ray: ur right. i got overwhelmed and focused too much on the negativity:(

    grace: awww your comment was like a whole email! i think it really helps to see everyone’s comments here, i already feel alot better equipped to face any negativity that might come 🙂

    pat: hi patty! i’ve heard about u from tim.. thank u for ur comment and i hope to meet u someday!

    chris: hahaha thank u! u know the funny thing is, a lot of ppl who diss me actually use wtf in their blogs too which is kinda ironic 😛

    pings: awww thank u!

    not telling: hahaha ur frd so insightful

    mustardqueen: cos i give up adi la hahaha every time i go in also locked wan!

    stasya: thank u for that! u take care too 🙂

    genie: hahaha yes that helps. thank u!

    chembeng: urs is the most insightful comment. u said everything i didn’t know how to say — about other ppl thinking they know u and u getting lost in their definitions of u:) i’ll try to do wht makes me happy from now too 🙂

    alice: it helps alot tht i get comments from ppl like u cos now i know that there are a lot of ppl who like my writing compared to those who dont:)

    thegeekinpink: haha who of my friends have u met? thank u for making the effort to make me feel better; u really did:)

  • *HUGS*
    hope bright and sunny days will come and clear away the dark clouds!!

  • My best posts was when I was 20-23 too.

    Perhaps you can switch to Twitter as an outlet for mental vomit type posts…

    *hugs*

    All the best!

    People will always say shit about you, don’t worry about them (easier said than done, I know).

    Have faith in yourself coz we have faith in you.

  • *HUGS*
    i think that because this is YOUR blog, you have the right to write whatever you want and say whatever you feel like saying.
    that said…i do understand to a certain extent the pressures you feel, sometimes it’s really hard because people are always judging us…but at the end of the day, the most important judge of all is yourself…so do what you think is right and good for yourself, kay? 🙂
    and omg please dont say you’re ugly! you’re not ugly – you’re very pretty okay! 🙂
    hope you’re feeling better….

  • It’s impossible to be liked by everyone, so just be yourself. People say shit about me all the time too. 🙂

    For the record, the people I know all like you. =D

  • hahah..i have a confession to make..actually, tim was always “audrey’s bf” to me..=p (sorry tim!) just cos i’ve been reading your blog wayyyyy before i even knew he existed (sorry again!) =p

    n u’re not ugly!!=( i cant believe ppl actually said tt…=.=” seriously, there are tonnes of people out there with nth better to do in their lives than to spam others blogs and say bad things abt them as if that can make them feel better abt themselves..=.=” try your best to ignore them..cos they are not important.=p

    *hugs* take care!!

    and p/s: i think i saw u at jayjays melbourne the other day..=p but i didnt dare say hi..*shy* haha

  • Hey Audrey,
    I have been reading your blog for a very long time.
    And i love reading your blog! Whatever mean things that others have said about you are just words of jealousy, you dont have to be bothered about those people!
    You still have a lot of readers who love you and are always checking out your webpage.
    Stay strong!

  • its hard to do so…as in not to feel bad or hurt after those stupid comments by those ‘ppl’…there are really tat kind of ppl in this world..maybe their goal in life is to make ppl sad so they will be happy…I always tell myself tat we cant make the whole world to like us…so we gotta love ourselves first, so I gotta brainwash myself too although I feel hurt when see some stupid comments..but just think back tat, we all still have frens and loved ones will be with us, support us, know who we are…which may help us feel better…just think of ur bestie Angela..n think of us…ur supporters are all here to support u 🙂 cheers

  • yalor life is like that very contradicting 🙁

    but fourfeetnine is owned by Aud Ooi so you can vomit whatever you want woohooo

    cheer up girl!
    *hugs*

  • Don’t care about what people say. There’s billions of people in the world and we’re probably gonna meet one million people before we die, and it’s impossible to please that one million people right?

    Think of it this way. A very rich man donated to the charity – at least ONE person is gonna say he is fake and just wants publicity. But when he doesn’t donate to the charity, people is gonna say he is a sucker who only think about himself even when the most posh place he brought his family was Mcdonalds’.

    Please yourself first, not others. That’s the reason you live.

    🙂

  • hey be strong ya. i think u get negative comments becuz they are just plain jealous/envious/sour grapes? they could jolly well not visit your blog but they choose too! i think u need not feel restricted cuz this is ur blog. it’s too tiring. gotta say sth cliche: be yourself 🙂

  • i think xiaxue is a perfect example. remember what she said? what’s a few haters compared to a million supporters?

    don’t worry k. sometimes it’s really fine to just listen to ur heart and do whatever u feel like doing. just do what u think it’s right la!! *righteous*

  • hello..i guess everyone has pretty much said what i wanna say.. laughs* but i still wanna say (God why am i repeating myself) that you are the best and i love every bit of your posts every time i load your blog. i have been stalking like since forever and i will continue stalking. *laughs*

    Smile:)

  • we can’t control what people wanna write/do/say…but we can choose selectively what we wanna see/listen…u get me? haiya, i also donno what am i trying to say =.=

    tim, cheer your princess up! 😀

  • Aww *hugs* I can only imagine how you feel, since I’m not that popular a blogger to have a gazillion people flaming me in my comments box, hahaha. Take that as a compliment, these haters probably suffer from a severe inferiority complex, hence the need to hide behind the ‘anonymity’ of the Net to put others down.

    You are one of the ‘happy’ bloggers out there whose witty insights posts revolving your own lives make the rest of us smile. Keep it up, and no need to censor your own thoughts/feelings just because some dungu doesn’t like it. They can go fly kites for all you care, since its your life, your blog and your fingers to begin with ^^

    Take care!

  • woh. the comments are pilling up. and I don’t seem to see any negative comments, so really worry about it. be happy. =)

  • hey girl, i have been following ur and tim’s blog for quite some time because i am as petite as u and i wonder how u manage to get nice clothes and shoes in such small size. i esp love the top u wore in the ‘strawberries and champagne’ entry. could u suggest some boutiques or stores which offer our size of garments?

    and btw, being small or petite or as ppl called midget has nothing wrong…cause we always get what we want.my bf is an entrepreneur who is freaking rich as well…frenemies r calling me gold-digger.
    so for these ppl out there,u could chop off your feet if u’re jealous!

  • Cheers!!I love your bloggie!!^^
    hmm..in blogspot can the posts be set as password protected?

  • I spent 3 minutes reading your blog post & 30 minutes reading all the comments!

    I still cannot believe you replied almost all of em!

    Anyway, when your blog is representative and gets substantial traffic, writing comes with a responsibility.

    When you were younger, there’s prolly nothin to give a fuck about because you’re just experimenting with urselfs.

    When you grow up and mix with the society, thats where certain things start to get a lil sensitive.

    You just gotta live wit it

  • Hey Aud….

    let me tell you something…the reason y ppl are comenting more negative things in ur blog is because your gettin more and more hits, you know? In the beginning, you didn’t have that many ppl reading, and therefore not that many ppl saying bad stuff, so you didn’t feel that pressure to please…but now that you have a good audience, its a natural, normal thing to have the haters……

    its actually something of a paradox, but you should be PROUD that you have ppl bashing you. I mean, thing about it…who do you think gets bashed more: beyonce, or the girl that sings at the local jazz club? Its a no-brainer. Beyonce gets bashed by strangers thinking they know her life…..so the bashing, the mean comments, the ppl taking the time to hurt you…its a good thing. It means you make an impression on ppl….it means your voice MATTERS…..and that is amazing, you know? there are 1000,0000,000 blogs out there and most of them never get read by more than 3, 4 ppl….bt yours DOES….and the truth of the matters is this: we read your blog bc we like what you have to say, bc what you have to say makes an impact, and impression on us….and that is alll Pre-Tim…ive been hooked on ur blog way b4 you and Tim hooked up…..

    So keep your head held high, cuz for every jerk that criticizes, you have a bajillion more silent readers that LOVE what you have to say, and that everyday wait for a more in depth post (i know i do!….ever since i started reading your blog, i went back and read all the entries, and i love your writing style)……….its just a shame that most readers don’t comment, you know? Why is it that mostly the jerks comment? Because your voice matters enough to bother them! Sighh…such is life, right?

    Wow…this is like a letter lol…but somehow your post just spoke to me…i feel like im going through the same “please ppl” phaze in my life…..

  • Hey aud!:)

    Maybe a ‘anonymous’ person like me leaving a comment wouldn’t make much a difference to bring comfort…but! i still do wanna say that for every 50 insulting remarks from airheads, there’ll be a 100 more people backing you up. You just may have not known yet. I have read your blog for quite some time, just that i have never stopped to post a comment, ok i was lazy. -__- 😛

    i get what you mean when you wrote you want everyone to like you at least not hate you. well, i guess almost everyone is like that. unless we are gene simmons from kiss, then maybe our confidence can give us a devil may care attitude, other than that, we are still very real people who would hurt or react to other people’s comments, but then again, WHO in the world are THESE WEIRD people?! Why should their words weigh more than its worth?

    its hard finding a balance to freely express, just hope that you know, there are many more readers supportive of you, not just because you are tim’s gf or whatever. in fact, i read your blog first instead of his! opps. :p

    there are people whose life is just maybe good at making other people miserable, that’s what their only good for. so let them be i guess. Let them be what their good at, cux that’s what they’ll Only be. So, let them be good at what their at, sad and miserable people behind the screen, and be good for what you are good at, being you! =)

    boy, this is the first time i have typed out such a looong comment. aren’t you touched this anonymous lazy bum reader typed so much? lol. 😛
    aud. jia you. ^-^

  • Hi Aud. I have been reading your blog for a long time though it’s my first time commenting here. I’m sorry to hear about ppl criticizing you! In fact, when I read your entry, I was like so shocked why these people even said those mean stuff.

    But I hope you understand that those people who are mean are often the people who voice out their opinions. Frankly, a lot of people (especially malaysians and i’m sorry i’m one of them) don’t say compliments very often. Hence, I hope you aren’t hurt by those 1% people even though they may take up 99% of your comments just because they dare to voice out and be so mean.

    On the other hand, I understand what you meant. Sigh. Blogging was very freely for me back then too. But now I feel like closing down my old blog and remain anonymous due to the pressure I might face if my future employers were to bump into my blog and judge me being naive and all that stuff.

    You aren’t alone in this, Aud. We are all here for you!

    I wish I would have posted a comment earlier! But seeing your this post, I can’t bear thinking how someone like you who’s so sincere can still get bashed by people. That is just so mean!!

    Do cheer up!!!

  • really .. what do those anonymous pricks expect you to do anyway after reading their shit comments?

    to take criticism at heart? to not speak your mind? to dump Tim? to shut down your blog? to uglify yourself? heck they might as well just ask you to roll over and die.

    and for of what? because you are witty enough to have a blog which manage to connects with thousands of readers?

    because you are beautiful yet down to earth and humorous?

    because you have an great bf, and surrounded by wondeful friends and family?

    so the question is, should you give up your happiness, your identity, and submit urself to anonymous haters (who in reality just resents you for having an great life in order for them to feel better about themselves)?
    j
    i say hell no! you show them aud! you show them that you are one tough little spunk who braves every criticism thrown at her way, and continue living life ust the way you want it.

    you have done it for years, and i hope that .. you’d believe it when i say that for every one hater you have, there are thousands who will love and understand you for who you are and what you write.

    so hold ur head high aud, and blog till the day you are genuine tired blogging, and not because of a few anonymous pricks.

    *hulk smash aud’s haters wtf

  • Hey there, I guess this is the first time i’ve commented and i just wanted to leave an honest comment here. I’ve been a reader of your blog since audree.blogdrive.com. And to be honest, you’re the only blog i’ve followed religiously. I’m no stalker, just a loyal reader. wtf. Anyway, just to let you know that i’ve always liked your writings and it sorta spurred me to blog and also when i was down, reading your blog kinda gave me an uplift, with the humour. Reading your blog taught be a hell lot about friendship, travelling and fashion. I’m also a subang punya orang. And i just wanna say, that your writings actually does mean something to someone, whether you know it or not. I’ll always be your reader. p.s I NEVER wrote an emo comment like this before either.

  • the only blogger i know of who has survived this is Xiaxue. in fact, i think that’s why she’s always herself even if sometimes she looks unglam or sounds bimbotic.

    it’s true that haters who actually take time to diss you (super nbtd) are really the ones who suck.

    and i believe you can get past it 🙂

  • May I know how much you got your extensions before?

  • hmmm i just want to say i like you wtf sounds so gay but since u were saying that a lot of ppl complain about you etc, i just wanted to let you know that there are more people who likes you.. ^^

  • i’m an overseas silent reader too. i check out your blog daily if possible.
    never thought that i would leave a humble comment here one day.
    but reckon that i have to today. (before you really leave here.. haha kidding)

    i like writing too but never have the courage to blog out any private inner thoughts on my personal blog too, for fear that people would know, then understand and finally, judge me. hence every time i blog will be those mundane life of “going-out-with-so-and-so-and-we-had-so-much-fun-today”
    so i can kind of understand how you feel now. the dilemma of wanting to pen your thoughts yet worried of letting people know because you want to protect you and your loved ones.

    it’s ok… we are not busybodies who want to know every bits of your life. just blog out events with pictures will do and at the same time get an anonymous blog for the real aud. kill 2 birds with 1 stone – continue receive ad $ and also have a platform to release your feelings.

    lastly, just to let you know that it was your blog which i read first before knowing who your spouse is. 🙂
    think this: he gains popularity because of you too!

  • Hi there,

    Not sure whether I have commented here before but I have been a true fan of your blog since your Japan days.

    I truly understand what you are going through, and that’s why personally I am slowly blogging more bout the beauty stuff rather than my actual personal emo stuff in my new blog. I do feel restricted, as at times I really would like to write what I want to say, what I want to complain, but it’s difficult nowadays. We are all afraid of stalkers, afraid of being sued, afraid of making ppl angry unnecessarily.

    But do remember that you still have loyal readers that have learned a lot from you and are behind you all the wayyy.

    Ganbatte ne!

  • celina: thanks!

    hb: twitter is still no replacement for blogging 🙂

    sarah: ahaha no la i don’t think im ugly. im just quoting the haters!

    da: hahaha poor tim! ya i was at jayjays u should have said hi!

    jeanette: thanks sarah! everyone is so motivational!

    voon: wah ur so strong urself:)

    colleen: seriously ur right! i think the important thing is to make sure ur happy above others right:)

    emi: thanks emi!

    ron: ya and i always thought xiaxue is so strong like that !

    msbulat: okok i blog more for u!

    annant: haha tim is very good at ignoring what others say.. i have to learn from him T_T

    faux fashionista: awww haha i like how u said happy blogger! thank u!

    cheong hao: ya all the comments really cheered me up:)

    pink: i don’t usually shop in stores with big brand names like topshop or miss selfridge cos they dont have small sizes. but my white top was from bebe! try sungei wang or bangsar. im sorry that u had ppl calling u names too:(

    eunice: thanks! i dont think so. i think u can lock ur whole blog but not just lock certain posts..

    desmond: wah why u read all! ya i know its something tht i havbe to accept..but im still having trouble trying to strike a balance tht im happy with

    rebeca: thank u for taking the time to write such a long comment! yea i understand wht u mean:) but right now i guess im still havng trouble striking a balance in blogging tht im happy with:)

    sarah: no ur comment matters to me! thank u it really touched me!

    doggie: actually all ur comments this time really helped. b4 i didnt know most of the ppl reading my blog and out of those i knew quite a few were saying mean things about me so i got hurt. but all the comments now are cheering me up

    jadetofu: awwww i really liked ur comment. ur right in everything u said, nobody should bow down to them just because they resent u for being happier 🙂

    xin ying: wah since audree days! thank u i’ll keep blogging cos of readers like u T3T

    estherrr: ya i love xx too! haha thanks for writing /beg

    cheryll: rm500+

    josephine: hahaha i like u too wtf ^^

    bleusnow: i just went into ur blog and it’s all abt makeup haha. i like ur style and even if u blogged abt makeup only id still read u 🙂

  • i don’t know what to say.

    but my friends and I, like you a lot, and love your blog a lot too.

    *hugs

  • >.<
    to make myself sounds less retard!
    (and not to scare u wtf)

    Never missed any of your post since i start reading is true! because reading your post is very entertaining! ^_^

    but about re-read the old posts was because i wanted to answer the “how well u know audrey” in fb.. wtf wtf..

    It’s like taking a test with refence book.. wtf..
    and the old posts are very entertaining also. HAHAHA..

  • *reference
    >.<

  • yor u see a lot ppl care for u ma lol… prev your entry which was saying no one leave u comments then everyone did see ppl likes u =)

  • cheer up audrey =)
    *hugs*
    sry, i’m not gd with words ><
    your readers will alwiz love and support you =)

  • Why not just close comments for a while and get back to basics, write about whatever the hell you want.

  • good good good…

  • NOoo! please don’t close your comments. Please continue to keep the posts coming, I love reading them.

    This is your time to be mentally strong – all you have to do is focus on all the positive, wonderful feedback from your most loyal readers.

    but consider those petty, insignificant, snide remarks as minor imperfections that come with increased readership.

    aud fourfeetnine BANZAI!!!!!!

  • just write what you want/like. if writing is ur passion, keep it up and improve it. dont care how others view you. its how u see urself that important!others who see u negatively are just noise. its like traffic jam u knw. imagine it..

    anyway, its ur blog. u cant please everyone, right? be candor.

    JUST WRITE (DO) IT!

    Great day!

  • you’re cool. you’re awesome. you’re famous. dont worry about the negative criticism; you’re stronger that any of that!

  • Guess you have the ‘rising star’ syndrome .. you lost ‘yourself’ in order to fit in what others want to hear. Like some suggested, get back to basics and key word is be authentic. Keep it up.

  • If it’s any consolation, I read Tim’s blog more now because it features you.. :p

  • honestly .. if u would wanna expect every reader who doesn’t know u personally to NOT say audrey is ”tim’s girlfren” everything about her is because of him .. money sucker and etc. its quite impossible to happened .. cuz the truth is u r in a relationship with a very successful young man. either ppl would accept the fact that some girls do have what it takes to deserve a good quality man or probably they got their eye too green to see other beauty of their lives.

    but .. thats the live of havin a successful partner i guess?! good luck with that aud 🙂 .. u gotta learn to accept the fact about that .. and be happy and proud of that i guess?

    but u r a sweet and down to earth girl .. too bad if ppl dun see that point.

  • hi audrey! it’s been awhile since i left comments in your blog hehe but anyway, don’t let those haters get you down. don’t let them affect your mood or feelings in anyway because most likely they are just jealous of you. of what they aren’t for eg cute, pretty, funny and intellectual ^__^

    the thing i don’t understand is if those haters don’t like you, why bother coming to 4ft9 and even making the effort to bash you. silly isn’t it? shows how smart they are.

    cheer up ya, you know you still have loads of supporters and fans. i am one! ^__^

  • 95 comments and no hate comments yet. you need one now.

    haha i hate you for being genuinely cute and honest when it comes to expressing yourself.. you mentioned something about all you do now is write about events and putting up pictures.. you’re not a dictionary, can’t expect you to write everyday right? words or pictures, it’s still YOU.. =))

    like you said, you’ve been blogging for 5 years now.. you’re growing up, of course the way you think and the way you write will change.. haha i have no problem with your wtfs as long as you dont fcuk me.. 😀

    on the haters part, you can’t please everyone.. so far, i’ve not heard people talking bad about you, only the good.. unlike other people who thinks they are well liked but only to know there are many haters around them.. which would you prefer? be proud that people around you likes you very much my dear.. =))

    we subangians are tough people.. be tough missy =)) erm my hate post is so not hateful wtf.

  • Hai dear, u are who u are, no second Audrey Ooi in this world can replace you 🙂 and this is your little paradise, you write what you want to write and we love to read what you written here.this is how simple you link with us(all your reader) cheer !!

  • I read your blog simply because I like your postings, nothing to do whatsoever with the fact that you’re Tim’s gf, wtf. See I even got influenced by your writings, wtf, wtf!

  • Hi Aud,

    I want to share with you one of fav poem of mine, “Anyway”:

    People are often unreasonable, illogical and self centered;
    Forgive them anyway.

    If you are kind, people may accuse you of selfish, ulterior motives;
    Be kind anyway.

    If you are successful, you will win some false friends and some true enemies;
    Succeed anyway.

    If you are honest and frank, people may cheat you;
    Be honest and frank anyway.

    What you spend years building, someone could destroy overnight;
    Build anyway.

    If you find serenity and happiness, they may be jealous;
    Be happy anyway.

    The good you do today, people will often forget tomorrow;
    Do good anyway.

    Give the world the best you have, and it may never be enough;
    Give the world the best you’ve got anyway.

    You see, in the final analysis, it is between you and your God;
    It was never between you and them anyway.

    So, write anyway k 😉

  • a common mistake that we human do is that when you are different, you won’t notice all the people who accepts u for who you are…all you see is the one that doesn’t…so, ignore all those hate comments that you think are ridiculous or unreasonable..be positive and stay happy…have a nice life 🙂

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