Yesterday I happened to be stranded at a client’s office after a meeting.
I didn’t realize that my colleague wasn’t planning to go back to the office after that wtf. As is common knowledge, I still don’t have a car fml. And since my office is nowhere near a train station, I usually rely on the kindness of my parents, Wombeh, and coworkers to shuttle to and fro from office, meeting places, and home.
So I sat outside the office, waiting for one and a half hours for someone to be available to give me a lift. And so I got super fucking duper emo at the vehicle-less state of my life.
Mad at myself for forgetting to check with my colleague if she was going back to the office. Embarrassed that I sat there for more than an hour while people on their way out cast me curious glances. Feeling like a world class burden and leech for having to rely on people around me for transportation. Mad at my mother for not allowing me to get a car. Angry at everyone for not being able to pick me up. And then blaming myself for getting myself into this situation but still wanna get angry at other people wtf.
The truth is, I could hate the world and blame my mom for my car-less state. But honestly, she’s right. There is no way in hell I can afford a car of my own right now. The Parents Ooi and I were going through the documents for my college loan the other day and though I’ve been paying like a thousand ringgit a month for a year and a half now, the amount still owed still managed to sock me in the gut wtf.
Let’s just say the amount I have to pay can buy me a brand new VW Beetle in Malaysia (just saw a bilboard for it today wtf)
(for foreigners, cars in Malaysia are disproportionately expensive in comparison to our salaries)
I even contemplated getting a scooter WTF. But then I’d have to get a motorcycle license. And I don’t even know how to ride a bicycle wtf. But THEN I’d get to wear a pink helmet WTF. But THEN I would get dark riding around in the sun everyday wtf.
At times like these, I wonder if what Wombeh said is right — is it worth it to go to a good school but graduate with years of loans on your back? Should I just have stayed back in Malaysia for college? Or taken ADP? wtf (sorry am not a fan of the American Degree Program)
But then again, who would I be today if I hadn’t gone to Mt Holyoke? I hated it then but now I think it’s damn cool that I went to a women’s college lor WTF. Who knows how differently I would have turned out if I went to NUS? Or Melbourne Uni? I would have none of the unique experiences I had in the US and Japan if I did the more traveled route of UK/Australia/Singapore.
I guess the price of a new VW Beetle is worth it for that…. wtf.
You know the other day I was in a conference of sorts. The topic was the differences in generations — Baby Boomers, Gen X and Gen Y.
(For those in the un-know, we’re all Gen Y wtf)
Anyway they stated that Gen Y is the most privileged generation by far — never went through any major wars, no famine, thoroughly loved & pampered by their parents the Baby Boomers.
(ps: talk was given by members of Gen x. ie. biased wtf)
The speaker: “for example, once the Gen Y turns 18, the parents give them a credit card for their expenses overseas. And when they graduate and get jobs, the parents buy them a car so they can get to work. And they feel sorry for their kids for having such low starting salaries that they usually top it up…”
I thought I should stick up for my fellow Gen Y members so I said “no lor! My parents didn’t give me a car also!”
Then all the older generation people dismissed me and said “your parents from Penang right? Penang people are different” WTF WTF.
HAHAHAHAHAHA sia suay Penang people!
Anyway my point is, they were right in a way. (not about Penang people wtf) A lot of my friends still get financial assistance from their parents. A lot get cars granted by parents, Tze is working in London now but still has a credit card paid by her dad wtf, quite a few people got substantial gifts (Chanel bags, European holidays, etc) from their parents for graduating.
My parents are not like that at all! Nobody can doubt their love for me ok wtf. But once their kid gets a job it means the kid is financially independent and should start contributing to the household. Which makes sense to me cos if I still can’t contribute to my family now when I already have a job then when can I do that? (btw remind me to give money to my mother this month wtf)
After I graduated I jokingly asked them if I was gonna get a graduation present.
My parents: “what? your graduation present is your education fees la” WTF.
So true T_T
We’re not superbly rich and my parents sacrificed a lot to give me and Ooib overseas educations (and Ooib a Masters now!) Some people ask me why don’t I ask my parents for help in getting a car but I promised myself I would never take one more cent from them after I start working.
I don’t think I’m unusually pitiful either. I’m sure a lot of people my age are in my situation or worse. Like at least I don’t have to take a bus to work wtf. And I have people who love me enough to ferry me around without complaining 🙂
So I guess I’ll be hovering around like a leech for a while longer… pour salt on me if I complain wtf.
p/s: ok that was a lot of verbal diarrhea wtf