So I feel like if you were my lover, you wouldn’t love me very much now.

Because I keep breaking my promises 🙁

I’m sorry I’ve let the trust go in our relationship 🙁

I keep thinking that work’s going to let up but obviously it hasn’t yet 🙁

I used to be the kind of person who would die die stay back in the office until I finish my work because I can’t stand having to face work at home.

But now I’ve become the kind of sad sap (no offense Desmond WTF) who has no choice but to go home, have a late dinner and continue finishing up work.  And then go to sleep.

But really!  I’m pretty sure that work by next week will let up and I will be back, as audsome as ever!!!

(did you all miss me)

(say  you did.  if not… i know your IPs.  hahahaha no la i don’t. or do i….?)

Anyway what’s been up with me lately?  Well besides losing my phone—

oh ya I got a new Blackberry -_- It’s a white Bold 3 and while it’s very cool and all, there are not enough nice themes out there for a Blackberry 9780 with OS6.  I don’t really like this theme (wtf Valentines?) but anything’s  better than the default.  If you’re a BB theme designer, kindly contact me wtf.

Besides that, like everyone else I’ve been following closely the news about Japan 🙁 Thankfully all my friends and host families are in the Kansai area so they’re all okay.  And the NHK people and Maiko & Lie are all ok too.

(shit got one more friend forgot he moved to Tokyo and I forgot to contact him WTF)

Anyway if you read Cheesie’s blog you might know that we were planning to go to Kyoto & Osaka next month.  But the way things are looking, I dunno how likely that is.  Actually we go help out also don’t mind!  But that’s not too likely either and I don’t really feel right going happily to shop in Japan when everyone is still somber and picking up their country T__________T

If anyone from Malaysia Airlines is reading this can we postpone our tickets? T________T

About donating and offering help to Japan – I’m not gonna touch on that because I think a lot has already been said.  And if you wanted to donate, you’d know where to do it.

I’m not Rosmah who apparently thinks that the Japanese disaster was caused by their neglect of the environment wtf but I think the silver lining on the cloud is that if this had to happen, it happened in Japan. It happened to the best prepared country in the world. With all their safety precautions and preparations, their death toll now stands at like 4k+? When the tsunami hit South East Asia in 2004, I think 200k people died.

When I was in Kyoto, we visited a disaster center. Yes! They have disaster centers to visit so you can practice what to do in an emergency.

This was the earthquake simulation room. I still remember – when an earthquake happens, you’re supposed to turn off your gas, electricity whatever, open the door (so it doesn’t get stuck when the ground or walls move) and hide under the table (head first)

But when I experienced a real earthquake, it was in the morning and I was still sleeping. I woke up cos I felt funny and realized that the curtains above my head were swaying!!!

I briefly considered running downstairs to safety but then I was too sleepy WTF and thought die also never mind la I’m too sleepy to move and just fell asleep again WTF. Disaster training fail.

The other bright side of the disaster is that it’s opened up the world to realize that there are Japanese who are not killers responsible for Pearl Harbor and Rape of Nanking wtf.

Some translated tweets from here from people in Japan that I read and cried to fts.

* 「みんな」

http://twitter.com/n_yum/statuses/46388003706380288

タクシー運ちゃんと電車駅員さんとおばさんと話したけど、みんな遅くまで帰れなかったりしてすごく疲れているのに、苛立つ事なく、言葉遣いもふるまいも丁寧で、逆に気遣われてしまった。｢みんな大変だから｣という”みんな”って意識があることに感動するし、私も受け継いで大事にしたい文化。

“All of us”Last night, I decided, rather than stay at the office, I should try walking home.  So I slowly made my way west on Koshu freeway on foot.  It was around 9PM when I saw an office building that had a sign that said “Please use our office’s bathrooms! Please rest here!”  The employees of the office were loudly shouting out the same to all the people trying to walk home.  I was so touch I felt like crying.  Well, I guess I was too tense yesterday to cry, but now the tension is wearing off and am very much in tears.

* 開放

http://twitter.com/robasuke23/statuses/46326711935172609

昨日、歩いて帰ろうって決めて甲州街道を西へ向かっていて夜の21時くらいなのに、ビルの前で会社をトイレと休憩所として解放してる所があった。社員さんが大声でその旨を歩く人に伝えていた。感動して泣きそうになった。いや、昨日は緊張してて泣けなかったけど、今思い出してないてる。

Rest here!I spoke with an old taxi driver and some elderly staff at the train stations.  All of them had been working non-stop and had not been able to go home for a long time.  They were visibly very tired, but never once did they show any sign of impatience; they were gentle and very caring.  They told me “… because all of us are in this together.”  I was touched at what the notion of “all of us” meant to these elderly people.  It is a value I will treasure and carry on to my generation.

Read em all!  I assure you you’ll weep like a menopausal woman!

I keep a pair of flip flops in my office (like three sizes bigger) to wear around work so I don’t have to be on heels all t he time.

But today I rushed out for a meeting and realized when I was outside that I was still wearing those stupid flipflops WTF.  I thought it would be extremely disrespectful to go meet people wearing shoes that are too big for me wtf.

So! I brilliantly concocted a plan to bluff people that I fell and hurt my foot so I can’t wear normal shoes and have to resort to wearing slippers HAHAHAH.

Then for authenticity I slapped on a Hello Kitty bandaid I found in my bag so it looks like a real injury WTF.

Then the whole time I forced myself to limp when I walked WTF.

Nobody asked about my foot at all.  Fuck this shit.