I’m kind of impressed that I haven’t blogged for nearly a week and I don’t feel the guilt!
Actually that’s being a trend in my life right now.
Less and less I’ve been feeling the urge to put things up online or document my life. Gone are the days when I was afraid that if I didn’t, I would forget what happens to me (actually problem still exists just that I don’t care now wtf)
Also gone are the days where I felt that I had to publish things somewhere for them to matter. Does that make sense? Nobody does anything without a purpose, and my purpose was to say what i wanted to say and have people react to that. And of course my purpose in posting up photos of myself was vanity wtf.
But lately I find myself whipping out my camera less and less. I’ve stopped tweeting as much too D: I still like having an avenue open where I can air my thoughts but less and less does it seem like a necessity.
Maybe it’s getting older. Maybe I’ve subconsciously accepted that younger and prettier girls are taking over the blogosphere and I will have to give way gracefully while my dignity is still intact WTF.
I always thought that I would keep blogging all the way until someday if I become a mom (and if I ever get hitched wtf) and be a cute gyaru mama and take bloody cute pictures with a stroller wtf.
But maybe it’s something you outgrow as I get older. The urge to document your life lessens and is just replaced by the urge to just focus on living it and giving it your best. And right now that feels ok to me.
Or maybe because work is taking up all my intellectual capacity right now.
Yesterday was my boss and mentor’s last day at work. I’m very happy for him cos he deserves some time to himself now and his family deserves time with him. But at the same time I’m panicking and shitting bricks because that means that I’m left to lead the team.
(and yes I got a promotion :D:D A month or so ago! Just never said it wtf)
But that means suddenly the responsibilities have all been shifted to my shoulders so I felt like I was drowning in a sea of mud for the past couple of weeks wtf.
But right now I think I am in a good place to create big things! To build and improve structures and make good things happen 😀 Again cannot reveal too much about work but for the first time I really feel like whatever I do now can matter and can change the things surrounding 🙂
Ok la so that’s all I wanted to say. Who knows my blogging mojo might pick up. Or it will just continue to fade away and this blog will be something to look back on and cherish 🙂