Jam and I talking about our childhood memories:
Jam: there was once my parents fight very kao so i tried to shout them down wtf (cause got school the next day and i need sleep wtf) then my dad took me and put me in the storeroom WTFFF
Me: i got put outside the house
like a dog wtf cos i cried too much
Jam: HAHAHAH awww so cute
my mum damn mean kindergarden first day she dropped me off
and i cried like shit
she just drove off wtf
i remember that moment wtf
feeling melancholy wtf
staring at her car disappearing into the distance WTF
Me: so poor thing
my mum took leave for a week when i went to standard 1
wait for me until recess n feed me wtf
then i faster eat n go play with friends wtf
ignore her wtf
Ungrateful daughter Ooi wtf.
Jam: yeah my mum came once in high school and i was quite shy wtf
“go home quick later ppl see you!” wtf
Me: HAHA why? did she get a call from the disciplinary teacher wtf
Jam: oh no la cause i didnt bring keys WTF
Me: hahahahahah
i think until form 5 i forgot stuff
like homework wtf
then have to use pay phone to call my mum
“eh mummy can u bring my book for me wtf
then she’ll drive up to the gate and yell at me in full view of my friends wtf
Good times huh Mummy? wtf.
Other conversations:
Jerry: I think I’m going to get a pet
Me: Ok hamster
Jerry: NO fighting fish
Me: Only if it’s pink
Obviously there was no pink fighting fish. All the red/blue ones looked like they would die in 2 days so weak (nyawa-nyawa ikan WTF)
So hamster it is!
Hello world!
I picked the one that was running about the cage because I thought a sleepy one would be too boring.
And on the way out of the mall he bit his way out of his cardboard box.
Me: Eh! Eh! He’s escaping how how! *shrieking
Jerry: Is anyone looking? Is anyone looking? *pulling out new box containing the cage and stabbing it with keys (to create airholes)
Wtf as though this is a time to worry about onlookers what if the hamster escapes and gets trod on huh huh how do you expect me to live a guiltless life wtf
Pink cage isn’t it pretty Although the hamster is a boy. And his name is Mufasa wtf don’t look at me I didn’t name him.
Angela trying to catch him.
Fuxxing good hair day omg I should be a stylist wtf.
My life recently has been revolving around Isketch omg the best online game in the world better than sex ok what do you know wtf.
It’s the Club’s new hobby of late, we’ve even put aside our official hobby of laughing at Latat for now. (Actually no we haven’t wtf.)
Other than Isketch I have also been playing Bejeweled with Suet and Sudoku with Tze and Jerry damn fun ok I love games
And Super Mario on Wii with Angela but I hate it ok always lose cibai especially when playing the batting game I can never hit the ball I dunno why ok I was quite good when I played softball in high school what T_____T
Actually I lose at all video and computer games la Pacman and Xbox game of getting your frog to cross to the other side of the road also cannot win T_____________T
Championship game on Xbox wtf. I don’t know what it’s called but it’s like DDR and if you hit it right you get fireworks!
How ar next time when I have kids my kids will beat me in the games and I will have no face as a mother! Will they still listen to me ar do you think wtf.
And of course my Sims which until now I have not managed to win wtf. Let me tell you I am blatantly playing it by reading cheats and walkthroughs now ok I don’t care I just want to finish this game and move on with my life wtf.
Anyway today we went ice skating!
Ya as if the mall nearest my house (Pyramid wtf) doesn’t have a skating rink like that but I think I only skated once in my life before and that was using the metal thing you push around on the ice =.=
So today! I fell down three times!
I think I was the loudest person there T_T I screamed so damn much and so often that Jerry might have gotten annoyed *shifty eyes
Even when I didn’t fall and merely lost my balance I screamed =.= Cos I have a phobia la what if I fall down and someone skates over my fingers *shudder. I want my fingers ok I don’t want to have to make a living painting pictures with a brush between my toes wtf.
Actually once I fell cos I wanted to skate up behind Angela and push her WTF. Then I lost my balance and collapsed and nearly cried wtf wtf.
And another time was cos I tried pushing Jerry to the wall and to avoid it he turned and made me spin and I collapsed again why am I like this T_T
And you know what!!!
So angry about this ok ROAR
I don’t know what it is if skate shoes are usually like this but I had this sharp pain on my foot and I couldn’t find what was stabbing me T_T
And we only had one one hour and 15 minutes to skate so cannot waste time figuring out what is that in my shoe so I kept skating.
And later after we were done I took off my skates… and what do I see! A blister the size of a coin a big coin ok and there was blood ok I nearly fainted wtf.
Got another one on my other leg also but not so bad it’s just white wtf.
I couldn’t even put my boots on over the blisters so I had to be carried back to the car like an invalid T_T
Seriously la I think I should go to a temple and change my luck or something my luck is tersangat malang until sometimes I cannot believe such things are happening to me T_T
2 more weeks left in Vancouver why can’t Mount Holyoke be in Vancouver wtf
Okay I have thought deep and hard about my future.
And I have come up with… NOTHING wtf.
Grad school is not an option now although I might go back to school later on.
I don’t even know where I want to BE.
I don’t think I want to settle down in the States, but since I have OPT I should try to work for at least a year here before looking somewhere else.
New York would be a great experience – winter also never mind, Imma brave it. Global warming hurry up la WTF.
Boston would be familiar with a lot of friends. But kind of boring with terrible winters.
San Fransisco would be wonderful! I don’t know anything about job prospects there yet though, all I know is I’ve been there twice and I loved it.
Actually anywhere in California would be nice because of the weather wtf.
But I don’t have much confidence in landing a job here; so I’m also looking at other places.
Canada? A lot of companies in Toronto, and Leroy is there too which is a plus point but I think I’ll go crazy when it comes to winter wtf.
I love Vancouver, but from what I’ve heard there isn’t THAT many job prospects. Plus I have an American degree, not a Canadian one, so I don’t know how much that will endear me to immigration officers/employers wtf.
And Japan! T______T I so so so want to go back and live there but again, I’m not sure non-Japanese are very welcome in the corporate world. Especially if your Japanese is not flawless.
Hong Kong and Singapore are options too, but as yet I have no contacts or anything with anyone there, although it’s probably easier for me to get into Singapore.
Malaysia is not an option yet because I know that if I come back to Malaysia and take a job there, I will most likely get complacent and lazy and I would never get back out of the country.
I will eventually return to Malaysia but not now. I want to see what I can do first outside.
I am so so so scared T_________T
Us in a manga kissaten (making names up) hard at work. Actually Angela was reading up on GRE and I was reading Harry Potter #7 WTF ya I’m slow and kiamsiap cos I made Jam send a downloaded version to me wtf. Everything free is good wtf.
Karaoke with Esther and Angie.
Dinner with Annie.
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Jam tagged me in an different facial expressions post! Which is similar to my ugly pics post a while back but I’ll humor her wtf.
This is my first-thing-in-the-morning-wake-up face.
My being-a-statue face wtf.
My getting-tickled face wtf.
My face-off-with-a-dog face wtf.
My bipolar disorder face wtf.
My celebrity get-that-camera-away-from-me face (WTF pajama pants damn ugly T_T)
My it’s-not-time-to-wake-up-yet face.
My hurry-up-and-take-the-picture-already face.
My wtf-I-don’t-even-know face.
My god-this-is-really-hard face WTF.
Why do I let myself in for such humiliation wtf.
Yesterday I went to the Science Center!
I am either very nerdy or very childish wtf. Cos it was so fun!
Tall Audrey and Show Off Jerry. Even these mirrors make me happy! I am easily satisfied wtf.
Apparently A and B are the same shade of grey and it’s just an optical illusion. But I can’t believe it I think it’s a lie wtf. How can it be the same!
Us and the most challenging game in the world. The aim of the game is to outrelax your opponent. The bands around our heads would measure our brain waves and if you were thinking too much, the ball on the table would roll towards you and when it hit your end, you would lose.
I knew before I played that I would lose already! We were watching other people do it and I know Jerry really wanted to play it but I know I’ll lose for sure and I even thought of asking him to play with this kid nearby T________T
Ya so the minute we strapped the headbands on and I pressed the start button the stupid ball started rolling towards me right away!
And I could hear this woman watching us say “wow this is the fastest game ever” wtf hahahaha why like this T_________T
Later Jerry said he tried to think of stuff to help me a bit but obviously I was thinking even more than him wtf.
Actually I was thinking “cannot laugh cannot laugh got people watching don’t embarrass yourself” wtf.
Not only the brain game I lost at all the other puzzles too! I don’t understand why when the Science World is obviously built for kids, all the puzzles there are like Mensa questions wtf.
I swear only people with PhDs in Math can solve those ok *sour
And then I also lost at all the games testing your physical strength so help me god wtf.
Back to where I belong T______T
It was actually a playground so cute right! Jerry is sitting on the slide and actually I really wanted to slide down it, but cannot act so stupid in front of him.
So realistic ok the trash. I know because I am Trash Woman *superhero music.
Oh this is very cool. You turn the direction of the fan at the side to blow the sand and shape the landscape. It was supposed to show how humans change the earth’s landscape I think. (But why my arms look like a gnome so short)
Then I forced him to play the hockey game. Test his aim and strength wtf. There’s no way in hell I’m doing it ok I already lost at all the other physical games T_T but I really wanted to see someone play it so it has to be the person who teman me wtf.
This was something about how your face isn’t symmetrical and here you could see how your face would look like if both sides looked exactly the same (pretty weird)
Dig his nose wtf.
Like purikura! 
Me at age 45 WTF I think if I really look like that when I’m only 45 Imma kill myself T___________T
Breast implant *perks up wtf and testicular implant hahaha why look like grape wtf.
Penile implant! I didn’t know there was such a thing! Apparently it can really fill up with liquid to produce an erection. We were wondering if the orange bulb at the top would be inside the body or outside wtf.
WTF place the liver on his neck HAHAHAHAHAHAHA
Jerry as a seed flying through the golf course wtf hahahaahahah
testing wtf
WTF I was taking a shower and this Angela waltzed into the bathroom like there’s nothing wrong with it.
When I started screaming she said “But I need to tell you something!” and wouldn’t leave wtf until I told her to type it on my computer.
Just because we’ve seen each other naked during onsen doesn’t mean you can barge in ok Angela Luo! I’ve forgotten how you look like and I pray it’s the same for you wtf.
Pictures from meeting with Angie’s friend Milly.
God I love the lighting in purikura machines.
Ya allah I have to stop pouting.
And then Angie and Milly decided we had to play this fortune telling game with cards. We each had to pick 4 guys and the cards would tell us which guy would suit us best.
I was kind of skeptical because my luck is terrible and I knew I would get some totally off-the-wall prediction.
Angela’s and Milly’s predictions were true though! Milly made up this rule where we had to call the guy who won wtf and I thank god I’m in Vancouver with no way to contact anyone wtf.
Me dealing out my destiny wtf.
David and his girlfriend Ellie drove up from Seattle for the weekend!
It was sooo nice to see him again and I didn’t feel like I hadn’t seen him for six months. Although he started off right away making fun of me and scolding me wtf. Sahlah Angry White Man is Angry White Man. Dunno when I’m going to see him again because he’s going backpacking in Europe after graduation 🙁
Hello David! Thanks for closing your eyes wtf.
With Ellie in their hotel room. God she reminded me so much of Alison Ong it scared me. The expressions, the voice everything. Name also similar. Doppelganger ohhh wtf.
We weren’t ready wtf.
Why Lord am I so short wtf.
David looks like he really likes his girlfriend. Damn sweet I didn’t think he was the type of guy to be so loving *beams like a proud mama wtf.
To be honest, I don’t know if Ellie liked us much wtf. She wouldn’t dance with us the whole night, and obviously David couldn’t either. Then she took drink after drink until she got so drunk that she lifted up her dress to her waist WTF and the bouncer carried her out.
Maybe she’s really an alcoholic wtf but I dunno it seemed weird that even though we all went together she wouldn’t hang out with us and preferred to sit there counting her change and downing alcohol wtf.
My soulmate and me.
Me and Annie. And Freddy Krueger in the back wtf.
“youuuuuuu” Soulja Boy wtf. I am so skilled at this you wouldn’t believe I wouldn’t even mind if they played Crank Dat over and over again without pause wtf.
Annie’s hair is soooo nice looks like it was professionally blown T_T
Angela putting her hand into my top naughty girl WTF.
And now she’s feeling Esther up wtf.
Omg Jerry is the most most most sohai human being I have ever met. Just look at him! We even had a tapping shoulder competition in the club wtf. You know where you stand on one side of someone and tap the other shoulder so they’ll turn the other way to look wtf.
Finally a normal photo *wipes sweat wtf. But still looks sohai haih.
Whose idea was this! Good thing we look cute wtf.
And the sweetest picture in the world now if only Angela was a man WTF. We were actually trying to do the waltz backwards wtf -_____- and it came out so nice!
Angela trying to corner me wtf.
Me trying to escape. Find the secret passageway wtf.
Jam made it!
I mean I found the original template and she edited it to suit fourfeetnine.
Nice or not!
I told her to put her name in because she did such a lovely job /boo but she wouldn’t. Stupid girl wtf.
I think this is the only photo of us she truly likes.
Yay to Jammie! Thanks for putting up with my orders and nitpicking and asking for revisions. And doing EVERYTHING because I am too dumb.
Love you!
P/S: To people using Firefox, are all my links and stuff on the side or at the bottom? If they’re at the bottom how do I fix it!
The fact that 2008 is here only serves to remind me that
(a) I am graduating
(b) I better buck up in deciding where I want to be and what I want to be doing omfg
2007 for me started in Kyoto. Had lots of adventures and holidays with Angie and the Angry White Men. I miss them so much and every time I hear someone having a fit it reminds me of them because god they are angry and god do they love yelling at me and Angela.
Went to Taiwan with my soulmate, Ayumi and Yukiko.
Moved back from Japan to KL and was reunited with the Club.
Held down the first job / internship I really liked at Dentsu.
Rekindled old friendships and remembered why we were all invited to each other’s birthdays back in primary and early secondary school.
Flew back to America and discovered I have more perseverance and brains than I knew of.
Met up after years of antagonism with someone who used to mean the world to me, and had my parents’ predictions of “he will regret it” and “he will come back to you” come true.
Realized that the past is not for me.
This year, I realized that having your heart broken at seventeen and having your heart broken at 22 is incomparable.
At 17, I felt like my world had come crashing down around my ears. I didn’t feel like eating and I remember sleeping over at my best friend’s house every chance I got.
I even remember thinking I had let go of the only boy I would ever feel so deeply for and that I would die a spinster wtf.
At 22, I can most definitely still eat, and I can go out and play and laugh and joke and carry on with my life.
But at 22, there is a slow heavy ache much worse than anything I ever felt at 17.
I wonder why? I would have thought that at 17 with the advantage of youth, one would have hoped more deeply, loved more freely than someone 5 years older.
Maybe because this time I really did believe.
This year I realized that words are just words.
Next year will be better:)
This is the most honest I have ever been on my blog. I am not a person who is good at expressing sadness or letting others know when my life is not perfect. Maybe I am too proud. Maybe I don’t want them to worry. Or maybe I don’t want people to get bored of me.
So I don’t know why I am choosing to let it out here. I’m probably the crappiest writer ever of emo blog entries. Maybe because I am sick of feeling this way, and I am grasping at straws as to what will make me feel better.
Happy 2008, everyone.
I’m sick T_________T
Have been for about 3 days now. Took lots of ibuprofen wtf but my sore throat still isn’t going away 🙁
Angela’s friend Eric modelled in a fashion show the other day so we went for it. The dress code was semiformal so I dressed up like a datin wtf while Angie dressed like a hooker wtf.
Haih is a look like shit gao gao I am never putting up my hair ever again somemore I was already sick then.
Datin pearls and zippered hooker bra wtf.
Sick eyebags:(
Karaoke later with Eric and Benjamin.
(Eh let me talk about my legs for a while! I played paintball back in August and I got this huge bruise like the size of my heart wtf on my thigh and IT NEVER WENT AWAY. There’s still this big grey patch on my leg which still hurts the teeniest bit when I press it. Why is this so! My friend Allie told me there’s calcium deposits where the bruise is wtf and I don’t know if it’s true but she’s a neuroscience major so should I believer her wtf and what should I do!)
((And! After that whenever I get bruises on my legs which is quite often because I have the coordination of a robot wtf the bruises never fully go away either! So my legs now look like a barren land of oil spills wtf how! Mummy tell me what to do!))
Back to the fashion show. The clothes were so fucking fucking cute though! We wanted to buy like nearly everything. But we predicted everything would be really expensive, which we did find out today to be true.
High-waisted shorts with suspenders and ankle boots! Zomg I used to hate ankle boots but suddenly I think they’re adorable! I don’t care if I look 2 feet tall in them my New Year’s Resolution is to get a pair of them wtf and I wanted to get white (because that’s my current favorite color) but I think black would be more practical decisions!
Angela really likes this outfit but I think it’s just okay but yalah she’s so bloody tall and thin anything would look good on her.
We both love the blue dress on the left so damn cute!
I like this one (maybe cos its white wtf) but Angie says I have a million pieces of that kind got meh!
And the white and pink outfit on the right! The girl is so skinny that the skinny jeans were loose on her wtf.
Her blouse is really cute.
I was gushing about her outfit but Angela said what I wore that day is the same except without the hat and gloves wtf.
The male models. Eric is second from the left. At first I told Annie and Angela the 4th guy from the left was cute but I lied because later when I saw him outside I grimaced wtf. And the guy in the shades wore them the entire show because apparently his eyes are really ugly hahahahahahaha
Pretty maids all in a row wtf. See the pink girl’s white ankle boots! I nearly got a pair of those today.
Which brings me to today’s trip to Crystal Mall, which is an Asian mall in Burnaby. The designer for the clothes above had a store there so we wanted to go check it out.
There was a shoe store having a Buy 1 Free 1 promotion and I was going to get a white pair of ankle boots and Angela black but there was a scratch or something on the shoe. The salesgirl (who probably just arrived on the boat from China this morning wtf because her English was atrocious she couldn’t even understand when I asked her when the promotion was ending and when Angie asked her is there another size she said okay WTF) said Angela could go home and use a cloth and rub it off.
But what if cannot right, so Angela said could the girl try to do it for her right now and see, and she muttered “So you want ME to do the hard work” WTFWTFWTF
Suddenly the English become so good! One full sentence with no error wtf. Damn annoying ok! Isn’t it her job to provide the best service and sales item! Idiotic woman don’t want to give her business wtf.
Anyway back to Crystal Mall. Apparently the stuff they sell in the mall are all imported from Japan or wherever and they overcharge by hundreds of dollars I swear that’s where Cindy got her dress wtf.
I am really outraged by this daylight robbery wtf because I know that the clothes if bought in Japan cost maybe like 10% of what they charge here so me and Angela said we’d go to all the shops and speak Japanese WTF and exclaim everything is too expensive and flounce out wtf.
Plus it’s really useful to speak another language to discuss whether something is worth buying or not in front of the salespeople.
And honestly the prices were astounding! $288 for a top that I swear I can get for 5000 yen ($50).
Ya so we went from shop to shop creating ruckuses about the prices and “un-cuteness” of the clothes and stomping off with our noses in the air wtf.
Then we stepped into this shop called Shibuya 109 and Angie pulled a top from the rack and said in disgust “takai ne” (expensive hor wtf) and I sniffed and said “un meccha takai” (ya very expensive) with emphasis on the meccha wtf but then suddenly the salesgirl at my elbow started rattling a string of Japanese about how all the clothes were imported from Tokyo WTF oh mama it scared me so much cos what if she challenges me to a duel in Japanese I sure lose ok I have no confidence wtf.
How to say that we only wanted to say everything was expensive in Japanese just so they would know we’ve been to stores in Japan and know they’re cheating people huh huh wtf. Don’t fight fire with fire wtf.
We managed a cursory stroll around the store perimeter before lunging out with knees knocking wtf.
And when we finally arrived at the store with all the cute clothes above and the salesgirl smiled happily at us and said “Nihon jin no kata desuka?” (are you Japanese) I insaf wtf and said loudly and fastly wtf “Nihon jin janaindesu” (NO) wtf.
Moral of the story: Never try to tell people off in a language that’s not yours wtf.
Pictures from Christmas!
Present exchange with the Luos! (I realise me and Angela are both still in pajamas wtf)
Helping Annie curl her hair oh god please let me be a hairstylist in my next life (or a celebrity, yes a singer wtf)
Then we went to Sonar. Pictures henceforth are repetitive because I only know so many people in Vancouver wtf.
Santa Aud and Santa Angie <3
With Santa Annie and Normal Esther wtf. Why nobody want to stand next to me is it because I smell wtf.
With Jerry, the person that dances like a cross between a mummy wtf and He-Man god he even puts MY dancing skills to shame WTF.
Esther, Annie and Angela so Christmassy right!
It’s called Candy Cane and doesn’t it look disgusting! Like my childhood antibiotics and I shot dirty looks at the bartender for recommending it but it was delicious really tasted like candy canes:D
And and! I took 2 shots last night and didn’t feel a thing! (I suspect they watered down the drinks la but still! Means I am improving ok now give me a pat on the back wtf)
Angela and I wanted her mom to buy this so much for the front lawn! It sprays snow! But she said it was too big and hideous really I don’t know where she gets her ideas from *frowns wtf.
It looks like there’s a heart around our heads!
With Cindy. Her dress is from Swordfish, a Japanese brand and she said it cost her CAD 200!! (slightly more than USD200 / RM660) Damn cheat la these shops in Vancouver which import Japanese clothes then sell them at cutthroat prices. You could easily get a dress like this in Japan for max 9000 yen? Which is like about RM270.
I really need to work on my arms they’re skinny and flabby at the same time. Wanna shake salt on my food also don’t dare cos my arm will shake too wtf. Despite the fact that I can do push-ups yo! Like real ones on the floor! We had to do it for hiphop *proud
Hello soulmate *big shiny eyes
Hello again soulmate *bigger shinier eyes
Angela with Eric. Who’s having/taking part/not sure in a fashion show that I get to go with Angie to! Wheee so excited!
Me with Angela’s lesbian friend T3T Angela told me she was the first friend she met in Canada so I thought give her face la wtf but manatau she kept hugging me and putting her face so close to mine T_____________T I was so scared she was going to kiss me that I sucked my lips inside WTF T_____________T
With Esther and Cindy.
Why am I green am I the grinch that stole Christmas wtf.
HAHA does this guy look like my brother! So much especially the nose and the hair. But his nose was really nice ok I was admiring it discreetly wtf.
With the blowup dolls WTF.
Tomorrow is Boxing Day which means Boxing Day sales!
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