I’m sorry all my posts now are about being pregnant!!!  But I have three months of pent up things I didn’t get to say so bear with me wtf.

I don’t know if this is another pregnancy symptom but I’m having the weirdest dreams lately!  Normally I don’t remember any dreams – probably a testament to how soundly I sleep so it’s strange how vivid my dreams are now!

Dream #1

This was very early on in the pregnancy (I think I just recently found out at this point).

I dreamed I went to a meeting at my old high school (which is super close to my house) with two other people – a Malay girl I knew at some point in my childhood (don’t remember which friend though just that I knew her and she was wearing a tudung) and Gin, one of Fatty’s close friends.

I parked my car on the grass outside the school compound in front of Gin’s car, an old Mercedes (even though this is not his car in real life wtf).  But when we came out of the meeting both our cars were gone WTF.

So ensued a crazy journey around my old neighborhood looking for our stolen cars wtf.  At one point we met an old gardener with white hair who said he knew who took our cars.  I was desperate to find my car (cos in my dream it belonged not to Fatty but to his dad fml) and convinced the old man to come along with us to find the car.

But the old gardener ended up dragging us here and there all over the area but still couldn’t find the car!  Then we went into a decrepit building and the old man made us go into an elevator which went sideways and outwards instead of up and down (sorta like the glass elevator in the Willy Wonka series) and we fell and tumbled inside the elevator but still didn’t find the cars wtf.

I was so angry that he led us on a wild goose chase and made us fall in the elevator for nothing wtf.  I realized that he didn’t want to tell us where our cars were because they were actually stolen by gangsters WTF and he didn’t want them to seek revenge on him.

Then in my dream I went crazy and used some wire to choke the old man WTF.  My inner gangster coming out.  Meanwhile Gin was screaming at the back hahahaha.

I don’t remember what happened after that I think I woke up.  A bit horrified at how violent I was wtf.

Dream #2

This one not so clear but still quite action packed and vivid.

Dreamed I suddenly lived in a big mansion and threw a big party to celebrate wtf.  A group of mat rempits came in pretending to be party guests but ended up robbing the whole house WTF.

I think most of the dream was me and Jam trying to foil their plans and setting traps for them all over the house before they managed to get out with all their stolen goods hahaha.

Dream #3

The elephant dream.

Dream #4

Mentioned this briefly before but I dreamed that Mummy and Fat Her were getting a divorce WTF.

This was really my biggest childhood fear and Ooib and I would hole ourselves up in our room whenever we knew they were fighting and pray for the best wtf.

The weirdest part was that Mummy was leaving for another man WTF.  With an uncle who’s a family friend and whom I’ve known since birth and is the most unlikely person to be involved lol.  Then when I questioned Fat Her he just ignored me.  And Ooib was nowhere to be found thanks a lot Ooib wtf.

So I did the only thing I could think of – cried and wailed and sobbed my heart out hoping they would be moved enough to not go through with it wtf.  Then I woke up in tears with chest a-heaving wtf.

Dream #5

I think this is my anxiety about election day manifested.  Cos I’ve been reading all sorts of things about how the ruling party is doing its best to cheat so I’ve been damn paranoid about my vote!

I’m going back to Subang to vote and I dreamed that on the day of election I was still in KL WTF.  I was panicking cos voting ends at 5pm right so I was rushing trying to find transport back to Subang (even though in reality it’s like half an hour away wtf).

Don’t know why I couldn’t drive but I managed to convince Sekar (the despatch for Nuffnang WTF) to send me.   God knows why he wasn’t voting in my dream la wtf.  But there was only a bicycle at hand so we had to cycle to Subang WTF.

And then somewhere in the middle we had to pick up my cousin Ian and my grandma WTF.  Dunno how the 4 of us fit on one bike some more my grandma got back problems cannot sit up wtf.

By the time we got to Subang it was 3pm!  And upon reaching I realized that my polling station wasn’t at my old high school, but another school about 10 minutes away by car!  And suddenly the road to the other school became up hill and the bike started going at a crawl fml.  I shouted at Sekar to go faster and he shouted back that he was damn tired hahahaha.

Then I think I woke up.

This is how scared I am of not being able to vote or having my vote hijacked or declared invalid.

And I’m damn angry at people I hear are not voting lo.  If not voting don’t fucking complain about the country la.

written on 20 Feb

So yeah the reason I’ve been complaining so much about heartburn is because I’m pregnant obviously.  Hahaha.

I’ve been suffering from heartburn for the past few nights which is very very tiresome because as far as I know, I haven’t been doing anything to aggravate it!

I’ve gotten heartburn once or twice before (before pregnancy) and I’m not even sure why.  Maybe because I used to laugh at a friend who regularly got heartburn and even called him Heartburn (until don’t even remember his name now FHL) so maybe god is punishing me for that wtf.

(Heartburn during pregnancy is caused by the relaxation of muscles due to the pregnancy hormones or something which can also relax the esophagus muscles which is why stomach acid keeps coming up and you get heartburn.)

I googled extensively for causes of heartburn to see how I could avoid it.  I didn’t want to take any pills or medicine because… I hate medicine la wtf.  And  I don’t know what kind of effects it could have on the baby so I’m not taking chances wtf.

So the list of causes include eating spicy food, fatty food, lying down after eating, eating too big meals…. all of which I have been avoiding lo!

Spicy food is unfortunately one of the things that I feel ok eating and I have to stay away from it leh!  And I’m not eating any of Fatty’s food what LOLOL ok joke.  I make sure I’m upright at all times after eating also; I’ve taken to sleeping on two pillows which causes stiff neck in the morning fml.  So maybe the only thing I’m doing wrong is eating too much.

I don’t know how much is too much!  Before I was pregnant the amount of food I ate a meal was already a lot by other people’s standards so maybe even though I think I’m eating less now it’s still too much haih.  Maybe I should reduce my portions even more and eat more frequently… but I hate feeling hungry….

Anyway back to bad heartburn.  I had it for days in a row and I was so troubled by it I even felt like sticking my finger down my throat so EVERYTHING would come up and quit bothering me going up and down my esophagus.

Then last night I had heartburn AND a big wave of nausea, just as I was fluffing up my two pillows to sleep.  I sprang up, ran to the bathroom only to have the nausea pass as quickly as it came.

I climbed back into bed (with my throat hurting from heartburn) and feeling very sorry for myself wtf.  Fatty turned over to pat me on the head and hug me…

And I burst into tears.

Damn hormones.

I sobbed for like five minutes while Fatty went “why why? why you cry? is it the hormones? it’s the hormones isn’t it?” and rubbed my shoulders.

And after five minutes, I was done crying.  Fatty asked “why did you cry?”

I said, “I don’t know.  I don’t know what I was even sad about.”

This post was written some time ago! Now only can publish.  Up to you to figure out how long I am now wtf.  This is the story of how we found out I was pregnant.

My period had been late two weeks but I still didn’t really think I could be pregnant.  I was under the assumption that if you’re pregnant you start throwing up right away wtf.

So I just bought the test to ascertain I wasn’t so I could tell the doctor wtf.  In fact, I was so sure I wasn’t that when I was buying the test I also bought an ovulation kit for the fun of it to check if I really ovulated wtf. (due to my condition, PCOS)

I peed on the stick and waited for the windows to absorb the pee.

Saw the line appear on the first window and thought, ‘well that’s that.” And turned away to get toilet paper wtf.

Got my toilet paper, looked back at the stick and saw… TWO LINES.

My first reaction was to shake the stick and see if the lines would move WTF.  And the first thing I said was exactly the same thing I said when Fatty proposed:  “REAL ONE OR NOT?”

HAHAHA.

So.  My hand started shaking wtf.  I called Fatty to bring the box into the bathroom so I could check what two lines meant.  Fatty handed me the box and I stared at the instructions.

“Fatty I think I’m pregnant.”

“No la cannot be.”

“No really you see what the box says.”

“Are you sure those are two lines?  Not a watermark or something?”

Then when it sank into him, he silently went to his computer and googled pregnancy symptoms.  And didn’t talk much for like half an hour hahahahaha.

Why like this! I’m the mommy why is he more in shock than me lolol.

We called our respective parents and told them the (tentative) good news and Fatty’s mom started going on about how this tree in her garden never bloomed but it suddenly bloomed a few days ago so she thought it was a good omen of things to come WTF.

Both sides are very happy of course but I think the Oois were in a bit of shock lol.

So how has the first trimester been so far?

First week actually, I think I’m only about 5 weeks in so far.

1. No morning sickness yet, although I do get horribly nauseous most of the time.  I have no idea if this is morning sickness!  I’m not throwing up (thankfully) but I’m hungry and gassy all the time so it could just be the gas making me nauseous.  The second (literally) I open my eyes in the morning – usually because I have to pee – I feel a wave of nausea over me and I’m terrified I’ll puke.  I have to force myself to eat something right away, and then the nausea abates a bit but it never quite goes away.  I don’t feel like I will really puke but my stomach is still queasy and churning all the time. 🙁

2. Hungry all the time.  Oh my god I feel like a fucking whale.  I get hungry every 2-3 hours regardless of what I eat.  At the same time, I feel sick thinking of  most foods and the only thing I feel like taking is liquids… and spicy foods wtf.  BODY Y U SO STUPID.

Since I wrote this, I still get hungry but only because I seem to have lost all appetite. I mostly eat to not be hungry now so I eat teeny portions just to be full, then get hungry soon after.  I don’t really have food cravings, but I got lots of food aversions!  I can’t stand Japanese food now, especially the thought of sashimi (shocker cos it used to be my favorite food in the world) and keep wanting to drink clear Chinese style soup, and eat veggies and fruits hahaha super healthy.  I can’t stand the smell of meat and fish though so I’m like on a semi vegetarian diet now.  And water makes me nauseous fts so I’m existing on 100 plus, milk …and water tinged with Ribena.  The upside to this is that Fatty lets me pick what to eat nearly every meal now HAHAHA.

3. Peeing a lot.  Not sure why, but feel thirstier now more than ever.  And every time I take a glass of water I have to go to the toilet TWICE. Very horrible cos unless I drank a lot of water and didn’t go before bed I don’t wake up in the middle of the night to pee.  Now I wake up without fail every night, and when I go, it’s usually only a half full bladder wtf.  Very not worth it.  It’s like having a UTI but at least without the pain and fever.

4. Boobs are damn big. HAHAHAHA.  Ok la not Pamela Anderson big but shocking enough wtf.  I always wanted bigger boobs but now that I have em… I think they make me look fat wtf.  Cannot make up my mind.

(blog cut short need to eat again WTF)

Yesterday I posted this on Instagram:

It’s an epidemic!! Hahaha.

I was super nervous before, debating if I should post this, but I’m glad I did because of all the 100% positive comments we received. <3 I know Mumsy Ooi was worried (don’t worry mummy!) but with all the love and well wishes pouring in, this can only be a good time. 🙂

Me & Fatty (and our families) are very excited about this!  Blog more later!

P/S: congratulations and lotsa love to Wendy and Mike on the arrival of Baby Dash!!